Trust Me I've Been Broke Before {Asanoya angst}

Im still hurting.. Part 2 (chapter 1)

Sugawara decided to pull the 3 aside in the corner of the gym while everyone was leaving to go home. "So what's going on between y'all?? " Suga says looking at them. "I may or may not have  made noya mad because I told Asahi something he didn't want anyone to know.. It's my fault. I'm sorry noya" What Tanaka said shocked sugawara. "It's fine.. I overreacted" Nishinoya said looking at the floor refusing to look at anyone scared he might do something stupid. "I- um idk exactly what's happened but I just hope you and Tanaka sort things out-" Asahi was cut off by his phone ringing. "I'm sorry I'll be right back" Then Asahi walked off.
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Nishinoya's POV
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"C-can I talk to you alone? Suga-san.. " I said this because I wanted to tell sugawara knowing I can trust him to not tell anyone and give me good advice since he's known Asahi longer. "Ya sure noya" Sugawara said. Sugawara pulled me into the club room and closed the door so no one could hear us. "So what did you wanna talk about?" Sugawara said. I hesitated a little but ended up tell him "i-i.. I like Asahi.. I don't know how to tell him.. I'm scared" I said this while my heart felt like it was tightening. I felt like I was gonna cry. *no everything will be fine noya, calm down* I thought to myself trying to calm myself down*

"Noya... You should just confess. I mean the worst that could happen is rejection. Asahi would never try to hurt you so I know y'all would work through it" Sugawara smile made nishinoya feel better and have confidence in himself. "Ya your right. Thank you" I said this while walking out the door.
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Asahi's POV
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My phone started to ring saving me from this awkward conversation. "I'm sorry I have to go be right back" I said going out of the gym to answer it. I seen 20 missed messages from my mom. *shoot I have so many missed messages.* I thought while picking up the phone "hello? " I say to my mom. "You gotta come home quick. Like now" My mother said crying "i-i ok-" I was cut off by her hanging up *damn it*. I walked to the club room to change and I see sugawara and nishinoya walking out so I go in. After changing I get my bag and leave.

As I was walking home I seen an ambulance and cop cars go by *oh no. I feel bad for whoevers family needs the ambulance and cops* Asahi thought in his head. As he reached his house his smile he wore every soon vanished when he seen the ambulance in front of his house talking Aiya into the car. *No, no, NO, NOO* Asahi said rushing into his house. "WHAT HAPPENED" I yell on the verge of tears. I look at the kitchen and seen the microwave door blown off and glass everywhere. "I-i it's Aiya.. She has 3rd degree burns on her cheeck and chest and glass cuts all over her body.. " My mom said crying into the pillow on the couch. "No.. No.. NO. " I ran upstairs not wanting to speak to anyone. "I can't lose her.. I can't.. " I said dropping to the floor just wanting everything to go back to normal.. "I can't lose you.. I already lost dad.. I can't lose you to.. Please.. " I said to myself getting up and walking to my bed crying in my pillow. *no. She wouldn't want me to cry. I just have to push through this- but it hurts so much.. *

I decided to take a shower and change into a blue hoodie Aiya picked out for me and some sweatpants. I put my hair in a messy bun not caring how it looked. I just sat back down on my bed crying once more. I was so hurt. I didn't care about anything anymore. I didn't care about myself. I then remembered what she asked me 'can you please stay home' were the words she asked me..

*It's my fault.. I should have stayed home.. This is all my fault. First my dad and now her.. I make everything worse... If I haven't had gone to school or practice.. Aiya would be ok.. And noya and Tanaka wouldn't have fought..*

I thought crying even more. I was just a crying mess. My breathing was shorting and my vision had gone blurry. My head was killing me. My chest felt tight and I couldn't breathe correctly. All I heard was a voice calling my name. I couldn't recognize the voice at first I just continued to cry, not being able to breathe correctly. I then got flashbacks from when I was 10 again. I seen the cat, I seen the driver, I seen my dad.. Laying in a pool of blood. I seen Myself trying to move but I was frozen. I couldn't move, couldn't speak, couldn't help. I felt helpless.

"ASAHI. CALM DOWN, BREATHE" I finally came back to reality and recognised the voice. It was noya's. I didn't want him to see me like this but his voice was soothing. Before I knew it I passed out. But before I passed out I heard noya say "I'm sorry for not being here in time.. I love you asahi-san" Before I could say anything I passed out.
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