The Lost Pain

Catalonia pov

I'm sitting on the bed in my room,counting,listening for a heartbeat but yet there still is none.Waiting to feel something,anything.There's only one thing I have felt for a long time: pain,why won't it stop,why can't I make it stop! It's been 5 years since the death of my father and yet this feeling,this PAIN is still so fresh. I fought myself off my bed and walked down stairs to my kitchen where my father was taken from me.Still in this same OLD BROKEN DOWN HOUSE.I want to the kitchen drawer and took out an knife I look at it closely think what do I have to lose.I slid the knife across my hand just to another type of pain,a pain that I can control.But a fast as I slid the knife across my hand it healed just ats much.

Two hour later catalonia laying on the couch....

I hear a knock at my door,who dare disturb me,perhaps it's the gods trying to take me away and lock me up. I walked to the door for a moment. I believed I felt afraid,I made it to the door and I slowly touched the knob and turned it opening the door. Mother I said as she hugged me.What is she doing here I tried to figure out,My mother suddenly jumped with a loud scream.I backed away quickly as I'm so cold that when I touch someone for so long it burns.I loudly asked my mother what she was here for knowing that i didn't care.My mother responded that she wanted her daughter back the one she lost they the day with her husband. Another type of pain grew inside of me after she said that it was a pain that I couldn't control.Out of nowhere I bursted out THE DAUGHTER YOU LOST,YOU LOST YOUR DAUGHTER THE DAY YOU MARRIED ANOTHER MAN AND LEFT ME HERE ALONE.My pain grow bigger and bigger after each word and every second that went by until it was gone. But when I looked up my mother was on the ground clutching her heart,trying to catch her breath. That was the day she felt my pain.I didn't know that I could do that and that it will happen again.

Soon after what I did to my mother spreaded around the village quickly,The gods sent guards after me each one stronger than the last,but none of them was impenetrable from my pain.I made them all feel it,I made them feel how I felt the life that I caused to end early.One day I was walking out a forum in my disguise I decided to pay an old friend a visit.I walked up to Venus home slowly approaching her doorstep when I heard someone coming from afar VENUS.As she walked closer to me I stopped her in her path waiting for her to speak and then she spoke.Good day can I help you? Once those words uttered out of her mouth my body began to hard,my hand suddenly into an fist,my teeth clenched together.I feel something,something inside was this another type of pain,no this is ANGRY,I am ANGRY.I removed my disguise and raised my hand tighten my hand slowing into an fist.The more i tighten it the more she fell,the more she clenched her heart.I saw how she looked at me while I was slow killing her.At that moment she remind me of myself when I was an little girl. The moment when Venus was about to take her last breath someone runned out her house and scream No.As I turned around their they were looking me in the eyes then blow powder in my face.As the powder was blown in my face I began to feel weak losing my balance and soon after my concussion.