SEXY DIRTY LOVE (A Kim Taehyung Short story)

Chapter 15

He could feel her breath on his lips and he could feel his bulge growing harder with time. He wanted to take her right now, right here. But he also knew that he shouldn't after what happened a while back and their history together for which he still hasn't apologized to her.

He looked at her with eyes showing hunger, lips quivering for a touch and her breasts against his chest making it difficult for him. He could feel her perked nipples rubbing against his chest through his tshirt and how much it was bothering him and what would he not do to have them between his teeth.

The urge, the hunger, the need, the WANT was all too much. His mind was getting clouded with all the sins he would want to indulge in with her and how he wants to please her,  make her feel good, make her feel like she deserves the best.

'How she deserves nothing but the best.'

This thought made him lay still in his tracks. He knows that she has been though much and his role in all the wrong she has been through in her life. After all that, she still decided to meet him, give him a chance and befriend him and even forgive him when he has not even apologized once. How could he do this to her? How could he think of being so selfish with her.

Taehyung realized how big of a mistake he had done a few minutes ago and how she had been so understanding of it. She has always been like that. She has always been so caring, receptive and forgiving. She is  very sensitive but she has always put other people's feelings before hers, just like that.
After how he blurted what he did, he did not deserve this. He did not deserve her kindness or how delicately she handled him.

He realized how big of a moron move was that. And if he were to give into his needs right now, he would be committing the mistake that might result in their friendship ending forever.

'She deserves the best and I am not that. I am nothing but a moron who had and am still playing with her feelings. I do not deserve her.' Taehyung thought to himself as he continued looking into her eyes that were full of need and how hard he was resisting giving in.

Taehyung closed his eyes and took a deep breath. As he opened them, he could see a shift in her look as it was now full of confusion.

"Are you okay?", Younha asked as her hands moved to his face.
Taehyung took her hands into his and kissed them. "You deserve better, Younha."

"What? What are you talking about?", Younha spoke, confused at why Taheyung was behaving this way.

"You have no idea how badly I want to kiss you right now or how badly i want to give into all those very very bad bad ideas of what all I want to do with you but.....
But i can't.  I just can't. It's not fair to you and there is too much at risk."
Taehyung spoke as he got himself picking up Younha with him as they sat face to face, his hands intertwined with hers.

Younha didn't know what to say. She sat there silently waiting for him to continue what he had to say.

"Let's not do this. Let's not go further. What happened a minute ago was a glimpse of how wrong this is. How wrong this all is. How wrong...."
He struggled trying to explain himself but was interrupted by Younha, "How wrong WE are. Umm, you know what, it's fine. I get what you're trying to say. I totally get it. I am sorry it was foolish of me to act this way. We shouldn't have gone this far. It's all fine. It's all okay and you're right."

Younha went on as she looked at him with a smile that was clearly tainted with hurt but her armour was too strong. She knew that she couldn't let her self look vulnerable and so she adorned her fakest of smiles.