Eye Of The Beholder

I Will Follow You Into the Dark

BPOV

Oh dear lord! This can't be happening! SHIT! He wasn't supposed to find out! Not until I made sure it was her! SHIT SHIT SHIT! ! ! He is going to get himself killed! ! ! I was having trouble with my breathing and I began sketching the sides of my neck, a nervous tick I developed when I was younger. I thought I was over it but clearly not.

And his energy is rising way too quickly his body might give out!

"GOD DAMMIT CYRUS WHY CAN'T YOU JUST LISTEN TO ME"

"Hey, what the hell is going on between you two? Cyrus just pleaded out of here like a mad man!" The concern in Chirstophers voice was very clear.

"Cyrus is being an IDIOT and can't even tell that his energy is off the charts, he held me off. ME, and now is going to the Red Dragon! He is going to mess up EVERYTHING! ! ! I had everything planned! In a safe way might I add! So that no one would be hurt unnecessarily! GOD DAMN IT! JUST LET ME HELP YOU CYRUS! IDIOT" I'm sure I looked like a maniac, my hair was a mess, pacing back and forth sketching my neck like crazy. If I don't stop I'm going to make myself bleed. I realized my hands were starting to shake. This is bad, really bad. DAMN IT GET IT TOGETHER

"Dante and Xavier are going to be there! They know what to do! I mean Dante might mess up and get the shit beat out of him but that's a risk I'm willing to take. Cyrus can't handle that! WHAT IF SHE SEES HIM?! If it is HER than she was avoiding us for a REASON! She'll run and hide again! She was the smartest out of all of us! She'll never be found! I mean we only got wind of her because of that stupid post!"

I could feel the stinging of my sweat hitting the now open wounds I created. Great, way to go Babs, you're supposed to be the calm one and now here you are hurting yourself. IDIOT! Now you're gonna make him worry!

"Okay... I know you're trying your best but I have no idea what you're talking about... " He slowly walked to me and took hold of both my hands. Looking into his deep loveling brown eyes I could see we were scaring him... I was scaring him.

"But I need you to stop sketching at yourself, and breath. Please sit down and tell me everything. I am not as smart as you guys but I'm a good listener. Let me help you, please let me help"

Looked into his eyes... they were pooles of shimmering cinnamon coffee, warm and inviting. I could drown in them. But now is not the time for swimming. I can't accept his help. No one can helps me, I am the one that helps others. Never the other way around

"No." I can never be the one who needs help. I can't be that person. I can't be a burden, I will not be a burden. I looked up to see his eyes and saw the pain that one word brought on him.

"No, I mean... It's okay, well it's not okay. I can handle this. I'm sorry for making you worry" I composed myself and slowly parted my hands from his. I quickly flattened my hair, straightened out my sweater and took a deep breath.

"I'm good"

"WhAt?! Babs no you're not, you were just hyperventilating not even 5 seconds ago. And your bleeding!" He reached his hand out hoping to move my hair to get a better look at my neck, I quickly dodge his hand. Now feeling the stinging a bit more, seeing as my nails have grown and can do quite some damage. I quickly brought my hand over my neck, willing my energy into the cuts, helping the skin fibers connect and close the cuts much quicker than it would for it to heal on its own. They'd be a little tender but the skin has been closed and no longer bleeding.

"Healed like it never happened, I may not be your mother but I can heal myself pretty good"

"Babs... " His voice was so soft and full of worry. It hurt me knowing I would never be able to let anyone in to help. I just couldn't.