This week has been a mess my panic attacks have been sparking up I fainted outside my teachers classroom and my teachers where shocked my mum and brother didn't belive me and I just wanted to slap them .
My brother calls me names cause I'm a bit chubby he will call me piggy and all other degrading names and call me pink I'm fucking done why is it because I came out a bit lighter I can't be the same race as him why can't I have that part of my identity.
My mother keeps getting on my back and every time I can't please her she makes me depressed and everything and because of this some days I'm eating my pain away or I'm starving it I get one hour a sleep a day ohh and let's see all my friends hate me so I'm lonely now and it's making that worse .
My mums making fun of my gender pronouns and I just wanna be accepted I was told I was gonna go to hell and non one believes me I just am sick of her trying to change me back to her daughter I'm her child I'm not a she or her I'm a they and them no where binders who will wear a tux or a dress to a party who will date anybody not because of what gender they are because of who they are and she can't get that
I really just feel trapped I wanna talk to someone I need to but no one listens in my lif. Or even the people who are supposed to
