ANGST/COMFORT anime one-shots

The Attempt||Levi Ackerman

⚠TW⚠ THIS CHAPTER CONTAINS SUICIDE PLEASE READ WITH CAUTION

A/N: this will help with things later so your last name is Ackerman, like Levi and Mikasa. You are the biological daughter of Kenny Ackerman. Also Y/M means your mom's name, that will be important.

3rd POV

Your mother was killed in a fire when you were very young and you never knew your father. The only thing Grisha ever told you was that your last name was Ackerman. (You don't know what Mikasa's last name is.) The only parental figures you knew were Carla and Grisha Jaeger. 

They had raised you as their own up until the wall was destroyed. Along the way Eren was born and Mikasa was 'adopted'. You knew that Carla and Grisha weren't your biological parents and that Eren wasn't your biological brother, but you treated Carla and Grisha as your parents and Eren like your brother.

Even so, you were never one to show much emotion, no matter what. In your friend group, you were always the strong one who was there for everyone, even Mikasa leaned on you for support. Being a good 10 years older than everyone, you were the therapist of the group. Somehow, no one was really there for you though. "Eren, can we talk?"

One day you had, had enough and couldn't keep bottling it up and just cutting it out at night. "A little busy training right now Y/N. Maybe later." He never had time for you anymore. You used to be close with him, now he just blows you off to train. You walked around until you spotted Mikasa talking with Ymir and Krista, you didn't wanna bother her or interrupt their conversation so you didn't go to her.

You knew where Armin would be so you decided to go to him. You didn't know how much more pain you could handle. Always being picked on by Jean, being put down by Reiner and Bertholdt, and always being blown off by Eren. You didn't want to keep fighting for your 'friends' attention. You realized you were at Armin's door and knocked. After standing there for awhile with no answer you decided to just walk off to your room.

You knew you would get in trouble for skipping your cleaning session with Captain Levi, but you didn't care. You didn't plan on even cleaning tomorrow or the next day, or killing another titan to help Eren complete his goal. You wrote out letters to everyone you cared for and one to Levi. You didn't want Eren, Mikasa, or Armin finding your body, they didn't need anymore trauma.

'Dear Levi,

I know this must be awkward, but if your finding this it probably means I skipped out on cleaning and you came here to chew my ass. Well I guess you didn't find me, so, go to the tree on the side of the property by the fence. Please don't send anyone there I don't want someone to find me. Sorry about this inconvenience, I hope it ends soon.

Y/N'

You had no clue if Levi would see it first, or if someone else would. You didn't really care either. You quietly snuck out of your room, with your 3dm-gear on, down to the stables to saddle up your horse and head to that big tree on the far side of the property. After  few minutes of running across the field on your horse you got to the tree, using your 3dm-gear to get to the top.

Levi POV

Damn Y/N skipping out on cleaning again. "Oi, Jaeger!? Where's Y/N?!" He shrugged his shoulders, of course he didn't know where they were. "Find them! Now!" I don't know where they went but they haven't been themselves lately. I hope like hell they're ok...

I walked up to their room to see if they were in their. I knocked on the door but didn't hear anything inside. I'm starting to get worried. Y/N is always around for people, especially Eren and myself. "Y/N are you in there?" I waited a few minutes before going in. I looked around before I saw what appeared to be letters to people. I looked through them and saw one for Mikasa, Armin, Eren, and... myself?