Caught in the Love Mist

Chapter 6 (Not Sponsored)

{Sugawara's POV}

As I'm walking home I think about what just happened. Am I all of a sudden in a relationship? Am I gay? Did what Kageyama reveal to me impact today's scenario? I'm honestly not sure about anything right now.
I keep walking in the cool dark wonderful night with only two visions in my head. The first involves a beautiful and healthy relationship that no one would ever question me for, and in the other, I get to be with a person I've grown to love during the past three years.
Both options are right at the tip of my hand but are far away in reality.
"How will I ever be able to choose between the two of them?" I ask myself.
'Wait a second, does Daichi think we're together? I guess I did probably lead him on to thinking that. DAMN IT! MY LIFE GOT COMPLICATED REAL FAST!' I think to myself angrily.
How do I tell the difference between romantic love and platonic love?
"BZZ." I hear my phone buzz.
'Oh, Youo texted me.'

Youo <3

Youo: Had so much fun the other night! I hope we can do it again sometime :)
Suga: It really was fun! I'm glad we ran into each other again! XD
Youo: I honestly think we were apart for way too long.
Suga: We really were.
Listen Youo, I have to tell you something
Youo: ...?
Suga: I'm afraid you'll hate me for it
Youo: That's crazy!
How could I ever hate my best friend!?
Suga: ... :(
Youo: Whatever it is, you can tell me. :)
Suga: Alright, here goes.
So I like you A LOT, but...
I kinda like someone else too.
Youo: Oh? How so...?
Suga: Well, this person and I have been friends ever since first year and I've grown to really like them. Today they sort of confessed to me in away.
You: In what way exactly?
Suga: ...
They kissed me...
And I uhm
Sorta kissed back.
Youo: Oh, I see.
Suga: I'm so sorry Youo!
You: Wait, there's no reason for you to be sorry! We can't help the way we feel about people.
Suga: Yeah, I guess.
Youo: Can I ask you something though? And you have to answer honestly.
Suga: Of course, It's the least I can do for you.
Youo: Was the person who confessed, Daichi?
Suga: ...
How'd you know?
Youo: Well, it was kinda obvious.
Suga: How so?
Youo: Well, mainly the way he looks at you. When he met me, I saw jealousy in his eyes.
How are you so oblivious?
Suga: ...
I guess I never noticed
Youo: No kidding XD
Suga: I really am sorry...
Youo: Again, there's no need to be sorry. It's not like I confessed my love to you or anything.
Best friends forever?
Suga: I was thinking the same thing :)
Youo: :)
Well, I gotta go shower. Bye-bye!
Suga: Bye :)
And thanks for being so understanding.
Youo: ^^

{In real life}

I can't believe she's still so nice. I know she said she was fine, but I know she must be hurting a lot. She was always really good at hiding her emotions. She never liked to upset people. It may not seem like it but she's actually suffering from depression.
Right before we met, her mother was arrested for rape, two counts of murder, and one attempt at murder. Youo's had it pretty rough since the start. She was never allowed to show any signs of fear of sadness around her mother because she would abuse her. I actually met Youo at court. My mom was her moms, criminal defense attorney, although in this case, my mom wasn't doing her job as well as she usually would because she by no means wanted to defend Youo's mother.
My mom introduced us after her mom has been sentenced to life in prison. She wanted us to be friends because she could tell that Youo was a lonely child who lived in fear, she wanted me to be her light, but Youo somehow ended up becoming mine.
I thought I failed my task for a while so I would beat myself up about it.
One day my mom came up to me and told me that Youo had thanked her with tears for bringing me into her life. That's when I realized that I had succeeded in more ways than one. She was able to cry without fear, and she didn't do so because she was sad or scared, but because she was happy and grateful.

I finally arrive home and decide to take a shower. I slowly take off my clothes and hop in the shower taking my time. I took a one hour shower, each minute spent thinking about Daichi and how his lips felt on mine.
I finally hop out of the shower and dry myself off. Once I've got most of the water out of my hair, I look long and hard into the mirror.
'What could anyone possibly see in me' I ask myself.
'Am I really that likable?'
As I put on my cyan pajama's I close my eyes and imagine what waking up next to Daichi would me like

(What Suga was picturing)

I leave the bathroom a few seconds later and say goodnight to my parents. My mom gives me a kiss on the forehead and my dad a head pat.
I walk back to my room and grab my headphones from my desk. I remember my homework but decide to do it in the morning.
I make sure my 6 o'clock alarm is on and once I'm sure I turn my TV on and connect my headphones to it. I scroll through the lofi hip hop lives and decided to listen to a Chilled Cow one. As I look into the TV I see a beautiful cat sitting on a balcony gate. Towards the center of the TV, there is a young girl seeming relaxed. The girl on the screen seems to be doing her homework and listening to Spotify. I bet the background music is what she's listening to. The view from the balcony is absolutely magnificent. As I look at the picture in front of me I can't help but think about how much of an amazing person the streamer must be. I slowly start to lay down and once my head hits the pillow, I close my eyes and fall into a deep sleep.

(The picture on Suga's TV)