A life with a mysterious babysitter

Wanting a friend

* Meeting mum at the hospital *
" Hi! can I please go to room 207, my mums there, " Belle explains.
" haha, Belle. I know exactly where your mum is, you simply don't have to tell me! you come here way too often for me to think of you as a stranger. " A tidy Lady replied behind the reception desk.
" Thanks Carrie! " After that Belle almost seemed to disappear into the elevator. She arrived at the second floor and walked until she got to the correct room. She entered it carefully as if she was walking into the wrong class. She didn't want to disturb any treating of course. After she realised she was ok to come in, she rushed to her mother and gave her a caring hug. Don't worry, she made sure she wouldn't hurt her Mum.
" Hi Mum, how's it going? "
" Hey hey my little baby, by the way I'm having an operation tonight want to stay? "
" sure Mum but can I go to the library to study because you know....... CURSE THOSE EXAMS! "
The mum giggled and gave a loving grin.
" Ok see you later Belle! "
Belle waved her hand and went off.
* at the library *

Dear Diary,
I should be studying at the moment but I'm finding it tricky and I just want a break. I'll be staying the night with mum so I'll be able to wright to you through the night, on Instagram I made a friend ( this happened a year ago ) we became really close but now for some reason she doesn't like me anymore. Dunno why. Anyway I'm glad that I'm away from Stacie and that lame mother of her's. I know I'm being pretty selfish when I say negative things because I am very lucky But I just think I need a friend. I've never experienced having one.......... Only if Stacie counts but she can't really be more annoying and UN friendly. I know I'll always have Mum, she'll always be there for me and I'll also have you. It's because sometime's I just wish I had someone who I could SAY ( not write ) anything to. She/he would always be there for me and not like Mum, like a real friend. Maybe I'm wrong, maybe having a friend is not pleasant and stressful. I don't even know. There's not really any girl in my school who is not worshipping Stacie. I can't put up with those girls. AT ALL!! I wish that I could just close my eyes and then when I open them again I'll be in another life, not changing my whole life. I would just still have my dad and my mum would never get stabbed and Stacie wouldn't be alive and nor would her mum. I wish I would be pretty enough so I could have one friend just one. Just one.