Beautiful Thieves

chapter 6

*alex pov the night he died*

'i can't take this pain and suffering anymore... i have to do it!' i thought. "i can't!" i yelled, and took the needles out of me, it hurt my i was strong. i then found my pain killers and other medicines i take, i looked at myself and saw amanda. i started to cry, "this is for me... no one else.... no more pain... no more suffering.... no more." i said then got a cup of water, i then put half of each bottle into my palm. i shoved them into my mouth, and drank the water. i did it again and again, until i got dizzy. i then walked to my bed, i found a pen and paper. i tired to write my final words down, and started to see things. but i focused on the letter, i then wrote:  'to whom ever finds me... i did this because all the pain i was in.. i hated to see everyone cry over me... this shouldn't happen... but tell amanda mandy and everyone i know... that i love th' that's all i got to write till i blacked out and felt my heart slow down. i felt it stop, i was still breathing. i then started to go, i then saw my whole life i've lived until now. i saw what i did and cried, and then i was dead...

*amanda pov*

i still can't believe he did that, and wrote a letter before he died. it broke my heart even more to know he was suffering and never told anyone. he looked normal last time i was here, but people can hide it really well. i don't want to think of him doing that, but he did and now he is gone forever.