ʙʉʈʈɞʀfʟʏ ɛffɛcɫ ||~$ʟʊɱptɑcɪøɴ~||

for you

*Stokeley*

By the last, pump from the chest, Jahseh slowly opened his eyes, the ambulance still werent there "Jah, Jah hello can you hear me?" 

In which Jahseh slightly smiling nodding 'yes'. In relief Stokeley hugs him really tight 

"Oh my god, thank god" he said, his worriness going away

2 minutes later the ambulance showed up Stokeley 

*Jahseh POV*

All I felt was dizziness and emptiness, which really wasnt the first time I felt this way. When I was 7 I was beat up until I was left unconscious, so I wasnt really freak out, I was a lil nervous and freak out when I woke up to see Stokeley.

"Im so sorry Jah" he says a lil shaky.

I just made a confused face in response. 

God I hate my voice

"Im sorry but...i gotta go, my girlfriend is worried about me.." He says, which broke my heart when he said girlfriend  for some reason that got me mad. 

In madness I grabed him by his wrist and twisted it

"Ow what the fuck" He says looking at me like I was crazy

"Fuck yo girlfriend" I said, getting up mad as fuck.

The ambulance arrived minutes later, I was by myself cold and alone, I would have rather gone to the hospital then going back home, but I just explain it to the cops and the other people their that I was ok, which I felt still very dizzy, and I kept on seeing black dots but I just tried ignoring it. 

//////

I tried not to make too much noises trying to go upstairs, when I slipped on some random ass pencil off the ground

"JAhseh" my mom says coming down stairs, she had black bags under her eyes and her eyes were very puffy and red like she had been crying, I instantly felt regret. 

"Where were you?" She says, worried.

I just looked down playing with my hands. Her eyes became big when she notice the bruises, and marks on my neck. 

"So you decided to sneak out and have sex, while me and your dad were worried sick about you"

I felt this madness rush in me. 

"I DIDNT HAVE SEX MOM"

I said.

"Well then what did you have huh? You obviously have these red marks and hickey all ove-"

"..its nothing" I said not wanting to talk about it anymore. 

"Tell us, me and your da-"

"YOUR NOT MY MOM AND HE'S NOT.MY.DAD .... DO YOU NOT GET THAT? NO ONE LOVES ME. NO ONE HAS EVER LOVED ME, THATS WHY I WAS FUCKING ADOPTED."

I say tears streaming down my face, I didnt even wanna hear what she was gonna say next I grabed my car keys, grabed my hoodie, and slammed the door.

*Jahseh*

Jahseh stoped at a gas station, crying and crying, he couldnt take the feeling of not being loved or appreciated by someone any longer. Everyone he loves didnt love him back. 

He grabbed his blade from his pocket hoodie, and putting it against his skin. He loved how he felt safe and felt like a weight was lifted off his chest when he had the blade.

All of a sudden he felt his phone vibrating

It was his mom

There had been 14 miss calls from her and two miss calls from Symere

He slightly smiled, calling him

"Heyyyyy" Symere says, full of energy.

"..hi"

"Where have you been bitch ive been trynna find you.."

"I..uh..i was feeding my dog"

"You lying ass, I went over to yo house, you werent there.."

I pause looking down at my wrist 

"I..um..can you come over please" He says, his voice cracking at the end

"Ayo you ok?"

"..yes" 

"Ight well ill go over once im done watching American Horror Story" he says, hanging up.

Jahseh felt like talking to Stokeley but he knew he was probably fucking some bitch

Symere 🤠: "Where are you?"

Seen ✔

Jah ✌🏽✨🤓🦋: Im at a random gas station idk

Seen ✔

Minutes later he saw Symere small figure. Jahseh smiled real big as Symere got in

"Ay what up nigger bitchhh" he says smiling but slowly turning into a frown as he realized Jahseh brused neck, swollen eyes, and teary eyes. 

"Oh my god baby are you ok?" 

"No sy im not, all I wanna do is fucking go home and go to sleep and never wake up and I cant even do that because my foster parents thought I was doing something nasty"

"What happened?"

In which Jahseh stayed quite, in a sign to leave it alone, in which Symere didnt get it. Asking him agian.

"I dont wanna talk about it.."

"I understand" he says grabbing his hand in comfort 

"I just wish people loved me" he said tearing up.

"What do you mean Jah, I do. I love you"

"...i...i dont know. Their was this old man who was trynna rape me, and well.."

He slowly lifted up his shirt, showing the dry blood. And then look away in shame

"Oh my god Jah, what the fuck, where is that son of a bitch? Did he go to jail? Where is he? I swear to god imma fucking kill him" he says growing in anger, clinching his fist."

"I..i dont know he ran away..Stokeley saved me though...well sorta..he left me for his girlfriend"

"What.The.Fuck, that dumb bitch"

"What do you mean? Stokeley doesn't have a girlfriend..."

In which Jahseh makes a confused face.

"Im friends with Jordan" he says grinning. "And well since you liked Stokeley I wanted to try and know about him, that way he wont mess with your heart or anything..Stokeley just messes with girls, he has never been in an actual relationship... He has been messing around with girls but he never had a girlfriend"

"I..." Jahseh was speechless. Why would he lie? 

Ew. This is bad