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Username…  JC.freak.878

Chat friend… Child.of.grace

JC.freak.878: Hey Nickie

Child.of.grace: WHAT'S GOOD ELENA

JC.freak.878: I have a question
JC.freak.878: Do you think I am ugly? Be honest I came to you cause you're my best friend.

Child.of.grace: Now Elena you know I tell you that you're so beautiful that even the stars in the sky shine brighter on you. And girl what in the world is making you say that. Are the girls in that new prep school bullying you.

JC.freak.878: No no...it's just reality keeps telling me that I am. Look, all these guys they only talk to the "popular" girls. The baddies. And then there is me, the only reason why boys talk to me is to see if I can help them with their homework...

Child.of.grace: Girl just cause those guys don't like you doesn't mean you're ugly. It means their standards are low. All they see is the body, and the appearance. However, your looks can only get you so far. They don't know that you are smart, so smart that you got offered a scholarship opportunity in that school. They don't know how skilled you are in the arts that people gasp in amazement. They don't know that beautiful voice you have, echoing through people's ears. You are one of a kind.

JC.freak.878: So will I be alone forever...cause it seems that if someone likes me I am just a backup option. Makes me feel kinda trashy, makes me hate myself a little more.

Child.of.grace: Elena don't hate yourself for someone's lack to see the true beauty that lies within you. There is so much more to you, than they are willing to discover and see. See if you knew the way God thought about you, you would honestly give yourself some credit. He looks at you and says " I did that " he saw you and thought it was good enough for the world to behold yet never conquer. Don't let your thoughts get the best of you.

JC.freak.878: I know all that...it's just sometimes reality keeps telling me " You can be positive, you can enhance yourself, but you can never be them. You don't have the it quality, and no guy sees true beauty in this generation. Lust has distorted their views so much that they forget to love, and remember to feed their bodies. Once you lose that  quality you're equivalent to nothing so might as well stop trying and think about how life looks like alone. Looks can get you so far"
JC.freak.878: Imagine walking around with those thoughts eating away at you. You don't even want to go anywhere. You have to keep hiding away making yourself feel smaller and smaller. Only till then do you feel good about yourself. Only then will you feel safe. If people try to talk to me, I avoid them, or be awkward as possible cause sometimes being quiet is safer than speaking up. I feel inferior to any girl I walk past and I think she is better than me in more ways than one.

Child.of.grace: Is that why you changed your hair? So that your puffy curls could cover your eyes. So that no one could  recognize and see the real you. Is that why you started wearing sweats all the time?
Is it why you stopped leaving the house...leaving your room? Is this why you look so empty, and keep smiling to cover up the fact that you are not okay?

JC.freak.878: All yes...but the world is ending anyway so I can just keep hiding till Jesus comes anyway.

Child.of.grace: Did you ever stop to think that you might be hiding from God? Do you realize that God sees how much you're hurting, but it hurts him even more that you aren't telling him how you feel? Did you ever stop to think, am I just running away from my problems, and not handing them to God whose hands have been held out to take them? Do you know how many tears God showed me you shed in your room all alone in the dark? That broke my heart so much that I was so sick to my stomach knowing that I failed you as a friend. It blew my mind that my friend, who I thought should be showered on Vogue magazines, could think like this. The same girl who lights up a room when she smiles and talks. The one who knows how to make even my toughest days a little smoother with her clever jokes. I can't imagine ever thinking so low of you. I always felt inspired by you. But this just showed me how all of the smiles and jokes were just used to cover up how you really felt, and you were so good at it that I couldn't tell that you're going through so much.

JC.freak.878:...I'm sorry…

Child.of.grace: Why are you apologizing, you felt like this for so long, but you couldn't even tell me how you felt?

JC.freak.878: I heard what you said...I just never thought about it like that...I'm in tears cause the truth felt so brutal yet liberating.

Child.of.grace: A guy who will be wise enough to find you and love you, has found one of the most scarcest diamonds in the rough. We children of God we are truly set apart. We have power and unlimited gifts and abilities that you can't simply copy cause it's heavenly attributed. Set free by a price of Jesus Christ. And simply put, a regular guy is not looking through the right lenses. “Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing,and obtaineth favour of the LORD” (Proverbs 18:22). It's true alright. Wonder why it says findeth?because he had to search for a woman, not based on looks, but her inner qualities, your  body and face can't speak for you. Your identity, what makes you you will arise for you, but have you forgotten. You have each and every one of those things planted within you, due to the fruits in which you are reaping. A harvest is not good just cause it looks good, it must have the enriching nutrients.
JC.freak.878: Thank you
Child.of.grace: For what I am just telling you the truth. Elena you are beautiful. Idolizing over the physical will make you neglect the spiritual. You are on a different path. One that is needy of your spirit to grow and make heaven. All these things just distracting you from your course. Straight and…

JC.freak.878: narrow

Child.of.grace: narrow...ugh that looks weak... STRAIGHT AND

JC.freak.878: NARROW... Cause God is the center, and Jesus Christ is my Mentor, Holy Spirit makes life a little better

Child.of.grace: Well aren't you quite clever

JC.freak.878: Love you sis for real ;)
Child.of.grace: Love you too :)
JC.freak.878: Let's hang out tomorrow
Child.of.grace:YESSSS!!...WAIT...Skater alley?

JC.freak.878: You already know

Child.of.grace: I do, I really do

JC.freak.878: I got so much homework.

Child.of.grace: Same

JC.freak.878:lol

Child.of.grace: XD

JC.freak.878: Good Night

Child.of.grace: NIGHT!

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