The Ups and Downs Of A Roller Coaster

Another Embarrassing Picture.

Things never really got anymore serious than this. I knew it would happen, but Jeremiah was leaving to high school. I was a year younger and he was in 8th grade when we met and I was only a 7th grader. I am sorta glad nothing major really happened. Otherwise we probably wouldn't see each other for a long time, and we would be left hanging by a string.

It was the day before the last day of school. We were texting each other and we had planned out that the next day we would take pictures together.

"I would wanna take a picture with you just so I can definitely remember you, since I won't see you as much." Says Jeremiah.

"Sounds great to me!" I tell him.

"But just a pic?" he asks.

"Well what else do you wanna do?" I ask.

"You decide...." He tells me.

"Well I'm not sure!" I tell him.

"How about a whole fucking album?" He asks.

"That sounds good to me! :)" I tell him.

We both agree on that and we tell each other our good nights and go to sleep.

I had in mind that we would do our picture taking after school, and I wasn't going to do it before school. But I had told my best friend Brenda about what we were gonna so. So she decides to go before school and tell him that I wanted him. So she brought him over and he brought a friend Frankie. When he got there Brenda had already got a whole bunch of people around. I was trying to act as if I had no idea what was going on.

I tried telling Brenda to not do this but she did not listen. So when he came over to me we hugged. People were crowding around us. I became very nervous and I was not wanting to speak. I apologized to him about what happened. I told him that wasn't my idea to have someone go to him. I told him its stupid friends that get a hold of your phone and see the texts. He understood and he told me

"Let's give them all what they want and let's let them take a picture."

We let them take a picture but we also started to feel awkward. At least I was and I am pretty sure he was. People were just crowding around us with their phones and cameras. I had started to become shy. I had told everyone "That is enough" but they wanted more. Frankie had yelled out "Okay you guys now kiss!" I had looked over at Jeremiah and he looked at me and he said "I can't do this, this is probably one of the last times I'll see you for a while." I understood exactly why though. He has just ignored Frankie, said good bye and walked away.

Through out that day I kept getting pictures sent to me. All of the same thing just a different angle. One of my best friends Esperanza had put our picture on Facebook. It had gotten many likes, and many more comments.

"Omg you guys are the cutest couple ever!" - Anonymous

"Are they going out?! They are like the best couple I've seen! -Anonymous

Jeremiah: I felt so fucked up! I am sorry.

Me: Why? What happened?

Jeremiah: Some were wanting a kiss, and I just didn't that that to be the last thing between us. And I honestly have been having a rough week. I am so sorry!

Me: No it's okay I honestly understand and it's not big deal!

Esperanza: You so should have kissed her it would have made her day!

Me: Please don't put him the spot like that..

Jeremiah: I am sorry I left you hanging like that but I just couldn't.

Others kept commenting some of the same things like the ones before. I had stopped commenting because things were just getting awkward. I Think Jeremiah started to feel a little weird in all that. I had become very embarrassed by everything.

People would continuously comment asking if we were going out, if there is a future us, or just that we were cute together. Jeremiah would even reply to those comments saying that all of those are possibilities. He would never say no to any of them, it was always maybe. So I think he still had hope there could be an us.