you.

Mistake

I'm sorry for everything I've done.

I miss you so badly.

I see you everywhere
From a band t-shirt to an ice cream brand.

I was wrong
Boys don't make me happy, it was talking to you about them that did.

I can't believe I said those things about you
Please know I never meant it
I was just angry
That I let myself get to this point
That I let myself stop loving you
That you stopped loving me.

I don't do much without thinking about you
My brain always thinks
"Imagine how she would do this"
"I wonder who she likes now"
"Does she still have feelings for me?"

I can't keep living like this
I dated a guy just to take my mind off things
I feel like a monster.

I'm sorry for liking that guy
But now I love him
And you don't love me
Neither does he.

I walked past your house today
I felt bad and I was going to talk to you
I wanted to apologize
To tell you that I didn't mean it
That I wasn't right in the head
That I was ashamed to like a girl.

But I never said any of those things
Because I don't know how to talk to you anymore.

I wanted you to keep my stuff
Talk to it, destroy it, scream all your problems at it, look at it like a good thing gone bad.

It's not love anymore
It's just 2 years of whenever I think about it I can't live with myself.

I want you to read what I write
I want you to hear me sing love songs, hear the pain in my voice as the happy beat goes on.

Please know you can talk to me whenever
About whoever, whatever or anything else that ends in ever.

There will never be a time where I don't love you.