It's hard to get over the death of your loved one, especially if it was your other half. It's even harder to watch the person you loved die in front of you, to close his eyes as his body becomes lifeless.
Now she's back to the place she was sent awa...
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I fucking hate this.
I hate what he said. I hate to admit that it was true. I hate that I still love these monsters even if they never showed me any affection, how could you still love people who are so cruel to you?
"Cassy?" Jake says as he comes near me and takes me into a comforting hug.
"J." I say as I snuggle into the only comfort I'll ever get from now on.
"I bought ice cream, we could binge watch movies later." He says as we pull away from the hug.
"Thank you. But I think I'm gonna skip this one." I say with a sad smile.
"I'm not leaving you alone, especially not tonight."
"Ja--" But he cuts me off.
"Look, I know you want to be alone, but that's just going to make things worse and you know, I'll stay with you tonight plus that's what he would've wanted. Cassius would hate it if I left you alone today."
"So where's your boyfriend?" I ask him.
"Jesse should be around...oh there he is." He says as Jesse comes our way. Jake and Jesse have been dating for almost a year now and let's just say Jesse was the adorable joker among us.
"Hey Cassy, I'm sorry for your loss, I bought ice cream." He says as he gives me a hug.
"You got ice cream too?" Jake asks Jesse.
"Well I was going to binge watch movies with her."
"I was going to do that with her." Jake tells him.
"Well more ice cream for me so how about we three could do it together." I ask them to which they nod.
Everyone settles in our backyard and my dad goes up to the mic stand to most probably give a speech to tell all of them we're a united front even after the death of our son. Bullshit.
"Today is a very sad day." Ya think?
"Standing before you today to farewell our son Cassius is one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. Words cannot describe the sorrow and loss that I am feeling, but I will try." Even your feelings wouldn't describe that because you never felt it.
"Cassius was a wonderful, sweet boy. Even as a baby, he had a calm temperament and as he grew into a little boy, always took things in his stride. I remember his first day at school – I think I was more nervous than he was. I held his little hand and walked to the gate thinking that he was about to cry, but Cassius calmly turned to me and said, "This is going to be fun, Daddy... Will there be lots of kids here for me to play with?" I laughed and assured him there would be." I remember, it was the time my parents were actually parents and loved us.
"Being the youngest boy of six, Cassius was always special to his sister, Cassalyna. She would dress him up and he would play tea with her." How does he remember that?
