Utopia

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I feel this heavy feeling on me, I feel tight and sore all over, I feel this rush of heat on me, the world feels like one, big, spinning top.

There is this weird sense of feeling, like I'm going to die any giving time, but it's just for a passing moment.

I start crying, I have this dread of loneliness, and then I feel this chill all over my body, which feels good.

I see it's face. His face. Her face. Their faces. But it's not enough.

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I wake up to being wet and sandy, I'm coughing up like crazy, which then results of me vomiting. I feel too crappy to realize how disgusting I am right now. I start slowly getting out of the boat, to be welcomed by a light drizzle, and to see that I could have been drowned if I stayed any longer in that boat, since it looks like it's high tide now. I walk into the icey water, I keep going, not stopping, I never learned to swim, but I'm floating in the ocean water.

Just few more seconds I tell myself. Just a little bit more. Too late for that, but I start looking for shore, I start panicking, and then by instinct, I start swimming, I never swam. It feels as if its second nature to me. I feel the adrenaline pumping through me, I feel as if I'm flying in deep space, alone without a care.

There it is. Safety.

When I get to the more shallow part of the water, I start walking, slower by each step, and the I collapse. I can hear, see, and feel things, I just cannot move. But then I feel a painful throbbing in my upper left arm. I want to scream, cry, anything to let out the pain, but like I said I couldn't move.

I keep trying, I have no idea what is wrong with me, after severely attempts of moving, I lay on the shore, little waves splashing against my feet, feeling limp.

I keep waiting for the pain to go away. I start getting used to it, but it's still not enough from me being furious.

That's when all of a sudden I can move. I quickly get up and look at my left arm, to my horror there's a massive gash, blood running down my arm, and then I look down to see that funny thingy with the logo VITA, laying with my blood on it. Whatever that was, was something I do not want to know about.

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I'm back-sorta