Experience

Experience - Part 1

The shared apartment of Aizawa Shouta and Hizashi Yamada was darkly lit as the two shared a rare moment alone together. They sat on the couch, lazily watching the news. Aizawa had his legs resting on Hizashi's lap as the rest of his body was sprawled out on the couch in a comfortable position. 

Aizawa wore black sweat pants and a raggedy black shirt. Hizashi was sitting upright in a baggy red shirt and loose fitting sweatpants with his long blonde hair tied in a loose ponytail. He was lightly running his fingers over Aizawa's sore leg muscles.

They had been dating almost a year and Aizawa reflected on that as he eyed Hizashi. The blonde's face was soft with kindness and his emerald eyes watched the television. 

 Aizawa felt he didn't deserve the blonde's undeniable love and patience. Aizawa felt he was too irritable and cruel at times to the blonde but no matter how sour his mood, Hizashi was there with a smile to cheer him up.

Aizawa felt particularly guilty that within the past year the most intimate they had been was a few heated kisses that always lead to Aizawa pulling away and saying he wasn't ready.

Aizawa knew how promiscuous Hizashi had been before their relationship started and it intimidated Aizawa as he was a virgin. Hizashi would be his first everything and it shook his nerves.

"Hizashi?" Aizawa asked, feigning disinterest as he fixed his gaze towards the television.

"Yes, Beautiful?" Hizashi said as he looked towards his boyfriend with a small smile. Aizawa cringed internally at the pet name. Aizawa knew it was Hizashi's expression of love but Aizawa felt uncomfortable at the compliment.

"How many people have you slept with?" Aizawa asked, keeping up his air of disinterest. Hizashi's fingers froze from tracing along Aizawa's legs.

"Six," Hizashi answered cautiously but honestly.

"Why do you ask, Love?" Hizashi added as he continued to work his fingers over Aizawa's legs, reassuringly.

"...Curious," Aizawa said, nonchalantly. Although, he felt his chest tighten with jealousy. Six different people had touched and caressed Hizashi in ways Aizawa desperately wanted to but lacked the confidence to do.

A silence fell over the two until Aizawa spoke again.

"I want to make you feel good too, Hizashi," Aizawa said, his eyes glued to the television and his body frozen.

"You already do!" Hizashi said, loudly with a smile.

"...You know what I mean," Aizawa said, stoically.

"Sho...Don't rush yourself. If you're not ready then that's okay," Hizashi said as he lifted his boyfriend's hand up to kiss his inner wrist.

"I want to try," Aizawa stated, bluntly as he sat up on the couch and removed his legs from Hizashi's lap. Hizashi let out a sigh, knowing it was useless to argue with his boyfriend when he became fixated on something.

"Alright. But, let's just do something small to start with," Hizashi said.

"Like?" Aizawa asked as he came closer to his boyfriend.

"Well, we could give each other blow jobs and see how that goes?" Hizashi offered and Aizawa felt his lower stomach tighten at the thought of Hizashi's tongue on his member. Aizawa nodded, avoiding eye contact.

"Okay, beautiful. I'll go first," Hizashi said, pushing down his excitement. Hizashi kissed Aizawa's chapped, nervous lips shortly and stood up grabbing a couch pillow. He placed the pillow on the floor in front of Aizawa. Aizawa looked at the pillow questioningly but Hizashi smiled at him feigning innocence.