Battle for love /Gream, DreamNotFound\

Chapter 22 Unexpected Event

[Dream]

*Tap* *tap* *tap*

Light taps are echoing through my head as my mind slowly begins to wake up.. I open my still tired eyes slightly, just to see George on his phone. His peaceful deep Brown eyes are focused on the glowing screen..

"Good morning" George's soft voice breaks the silence. I look at him, his innocent smile suddenly makes my cheeks rose red.

"Mornin' " a mumble escapes my mouth as I am still terribly tired.

Most of the night was almost a terror for me. Since I closed my eyes,  screams, voices, explosions.. Everything came to my mind like a predator attacking it's prey when it puts it's guard down.. No matter how hard I tried, the fragments of hungergames haunted me for the rest of the night..

"--hey, you okay?" I startle and look at George who has now a worried look on his face.

"Sorry, I-.. Sorry I was just.." My heart is beating fast, even though nothing happened.. This is so new, so... Terrifying. "I was kinda lost, I'm.. sorry" a sigh escapes my mouth.

"..It's alright, I was just worried.. I was talking to you and you were just silently staring nowhere... You were totally out"

"Oh" I mumble, slightly uninterested "I'm alright, don't worry"

"Okay.." George sighs, leaving his phone on night stand. "So.. Wanna meet with guys? I understand if you don't feel-"

"No no, I will be only happy to see them.. It's okay, trust me" I smile at him, still a bit anxious about going outside around other people. But I will finally see Sapnap and BadBoyHalo.. After such a long week..

George's suspicious look makes me nervous a bit, but like a switch it changes into innocent smile "..Alright.. I'm gonna prepare some breakfast" without any more words he leaves the bed, dashing downstairs.

I stay alone, looking into empty doorway.

"..okay..." I mumble under my breath and sit on the edge of the bed.. Only a sigh escapes my mouth before I take a look at my wounded right hand..

The bandage is for some reason soaked in a bit of dried blood, some even fresh.
I frown and slowly begin to take it off just to trigger really sharp pain.

"F-fu.." I swear and continue.

The deep wound, red around dark stitches is glowing with some fresh blood.
I try to move my fingerd a bit what only causes another waves of pain.. I sigh.
They cured it well.. But for some reason it hurts.. it hurts like hell.. Maybe it's even a bit sore, infected.. Who knows.

The pain itself is bad enough..

***

"Do they know I'm back?" I ask while walking through the street, icy breeze is caressing my red cheeks.

"I wrote them you came. Of course, both of them are eager to see you!" George smiles at me and I give him slight smile back. "Bad is already on the way, but Sapnap will be a bit late."

I should be excited.. I should feel happiness Im about to see mu friends after such a long time.. I should feel.. Good..

But..

I feel down.. Anxiety... Pressure on my chest..

..This is not normal..

"Dream-" a light touch on my shoulder puts me back to my senses. I see George looking at me.. almost confused.

"Sorry- I.." before I am able to explain, familiar scream makes me startle.

"Dream!" I look to the side just to see BadBoyHalo with his typical excited look running towards us.

Before I am able to react, Bad puts his arms around me, hugging me tight.
"I'm so happy you are back you crazy muffin!"

I can hear his voice crack from happiness as he's holding me tight with his arms wraped around me like snakes.. but.. I'm just frozen.. Frozen in place.

[Panic attack moment begins]

I want to hug him back, but I can't- the pressure on my chest is getting unbearable, my hands are shaking.

Bad immediately moves back, looking at me with pure terror in his eyes. I Can see his lips move, but suddenly I Can only hear my own heartbeat which is getting faster.

"Dream! Are you alrig-" George tries to come closer, but I automatically move back, unable to breathe.

My head is filled with fear, sudden fear, sudden terror- I can't breathe, I can't think-

*Huff* *huff* *huff*

My rapid gasping for air echoes through empty street and before I am able to think more I find myself on my knees with George and Bad around me, George's holding me..

I feel insane fear, I feel like I'm about to suffocate... I feel tears rolling from my eyes like waterfalls.

"-ou have to calm down!" From muffled voices now formed words.. I'm beginning to sense the world again, even though I can still barely breathe. I don't even know how long I am like this, but my face stings from coldness.

[Panic attack moment ends]

I gasp for air, letting out a mild sob.

"Everything is alright, just calm down"

Shaking calms, pressure stops.. I'm All sweaty, my eyes stings and my body hurts... I feel.. almost confused.

I look at George and Bad.. Bad's cheeks are now wet from tears and George's face has turned into terror..

"Everything is alright" George says softly, I sigh with exhaustion..

"I-I'm sorry, Dream- I didn't mean to-" Bad's voice cracks..

"Please- don't" I mumble, feeling ashamed of what I just did... Of what my mind let happen..

"What happened? You never got a panic attack before.. If it was panic attack" George looks at me worried, kneeling in front of me.

"I-I don't know- It just came-.. It's not your fault, Bad, you didn't know.." I let out a sigh before slowly standing up.

"But I should have.. After a long time we meet and I do another muffiny thing..." Bad wipes remaining tears in his eyes before putting his glasses on.

I walk closer to him, hugging him slowly not to trigger my anxiety.. "you didn't" I mumble and immediately Bad hugs me back carefully.

"I'm so sorry.. " Bad whispers, still hugging me.."I missed you"

"I missed you too, guys.."

***

We spend next half a hour sitting on nearby bench, chatting.. Mostly because George insisted it, his caring and fear about my health and safety is almost... Cute.. but at the same time scary, since it makes me feel bad about myself. I scared Bad enough for today anyway..

"So.. I triggered it by harshly hugging you... I'm so stupid potato.. So stupid" Bad mumbles, his face is filled with guilt.

"I didn't expect that either.. It just.. came.. sort of." I say, looking at fallen leaves on the ground.

"What did you feel then?" George asks curiously.

"Um.. I think It was a flashback from.. Arena.. and then started panicking.." I sigh.. Everything is so wrong. I am wrong..

"But.. that won't change the fact, that I'm happy to see you" I give a smile to Bad who still feels bad.. So do I..

"Are you sure you are not mad at me after what happened?" -B

"Of course" I slightly pat his shoulder. "None of us knew this would happen.."

"Yeah.. Thank you, Dream" Bad smiles, so do I.

"No need to thank me."