MANDISA
I still haven't talked with Musa since Monday, honestly I don't want to be taken for granted. I know I said I am going to let the phone call slide but no my gut is not allowing me to. I made some serious relationship rules to myself I can't break them because of a random guy I just met few weeks ago.
Today is Saturday so I decide am going for a jog because I am so down I know it will elevate my mood. Thing is I was diagnosed with a disorder but since I am child of God I don't take it too much to head. I pray all my problems away and do activities that gets me out of the state of being anxious or panic.
Mom: ekeseni uvuka uyaphi. (why wake up so early. where are you going)
Mandisa: to jog mama
Mom: wuu ehh Mandisa ugijimisa ini. (what are you jogging for)
Mandisa: well to maintain the genes mom. Bye
I take the Ceke route so I can make it quick to the park I'm going to warm up there. . jog as I am about to cross, there comes a car that almost hit me. I am scared to death I can't breath properly I feel like my chest is closing on me.
All I can hear is some lady voice telling me to breath. Oh God let me not have a panic attack in the middle of nowhere what is they kidnap me.
Her: hey are you okay. I am sorry about what I just did I was rushing somewhere.
I can't even say anything I am saying a silent prayer, I am surprised to see that the person who almost hit me is the lady who designs clothes for my school, Samantha yeah that's her name.
Mandisa: I am okay.
I finally manage to speak.
She helps me up and insists to take me to hospital just for the panic and also offers to take me back home.
Sammy: I am really sorry for what happened
Mandisa: it's okay mistakes happen all the time.
Sammy: please give me your numbers so I can check up on you if you are okay.
I give her my numbers. We are parked outside my house.
Mandisa: thank you again for taking me to the hospital I feel a little better now, I think the pills are kicking in.
Sammy: trust me youl be okay those work best I used to take them whn travelling cause sometimes I would get anxious about going to different places.
Sammy and I talk in the car like we are friends. She tells me about her life as a traveller how she used to love it and never cared about life until now that she wants to give her relationship a try. Lucky guy I must say and also she did good for herself by studying in between travelling cause now she is using her degree.
Sammy: I am telling you girl, I mean no guy in this day and age waits for you an entire year and never gives up.
Mandisa: trust me there are.
Sammy: well you don't sound like the dating type.
Mandisa: thing is I got into a relationship last week and I feel like guy has some things he has to take care of.
I tell Sammy what happened last Monday and what my reaction was. I seriously miss Jen.
Sammy: I think you are exaggerating the situation girl I mean the only way to get answers in life is if you ask.
Mandisa: no I am not trust me, I saw the way he looked at me before taking that call. I mean I'ts not like people are forced to be in a relationship.
Sammy: I hear you. Wow I can't belive we have been sitting here for three hours. I even forgot about my parents. I must say I enjoyed our time and I like your company I would like for us to hang up sometime.
I need to make a friend since Jenna eloped with her man to Rome.
MUSA
Some would think that I am happy with what is happening between me and Ndisa and to tell the truth I am not. I mean an entire week and she is not responding to my texts nor calls. For the past few days I was doing some introspenction and it just turns out that I want to raise my daughter in a loving home with someone who would accept her and treat her like her own just like how Mandisa was with her the other day. I let go of all the girls I used to fuck with and I just want to start clean I mean it's only fair I treat her how she does. Like Sakhi always says and I quote 'IF SOMEONE DOES NOT GIVE YOU A REASON TO FUCK THEM UP THEN DON'T'
I am now outside Mandisa's house listen to Drake ft Rihanna- Take Care and I must say the lyrics hit deep.
I know you've been hurt by someone else
I can tell by the way you carry yourself
If you let me, here's what I'll do
I'll take care of you
I've loved and I've lost.
YOU ARE READING
Uthando Olungangabazi
RomantikWhere doubt is present love can never reside. A story about two individuals who love each other but because of their ways of living and differences their love is in doubt.
