Frenemies with Benefits (Vee / Mark)

Ends & Beginnings

Vee POV:

What an interesting friend I made, my mind went blank on our way back to the uni, I'm even surprised we got there safely.

I dropped him off at the event and helped him unload the banners before heading to my classes.

I could still smell him on my clothes, I could still feel his lips on mine, his hands on my body and his sweet yet shy touch, my lips curled up into a smile without me even noticing.

"Someone's in a good mood" Kai greeted as he sat beside me.

"Let's just say I'm having a good day"

"Fine by me it's been a while since I saw happy carefree Vee, I missed that bastard" he joked.

Happy & Carefree? Me ? I wish.

I can't remember the last time I felt love for someone or even something close.

Who am I kidding I know exactly when that was.

5years ago: 

"How can you say that ?" She cried out "we've been dating for months" she shouted.

I just let her scream and shout at me until her anger dissolved, it's was all my fault I deserved it.

I should never have felt that for him of all people, I couldn't admit it even to myself and for the longest time.

But my feelings were too strong to conceal, this was love I was in love with him.

I was in love with P'Pete a man.

I've never had any prejudice on the LGBTQ but now that I'm a part of it all I could feel was fear.

I've always dated girls, even if sometimes it felt off I just taught this was normal.

I was scared of the people, I was scared of losing my friends, but what I was the most scared of my dad's reaction.

When I finally mustered up the courage to tell them the truth I was greeted with compassion from my mother and well my father took it as 'just a phase'.

Thankfully my friends were far more accepting and I was glad I had them by my side, even if they were annoying the hell out of me 99.99% of the time.

Thinking about the past always made me in a horrible mood so I just started focusing on my class instead. 

"Gun wants to meet for a coffee" Kai announced reading a text "wanna join?" 

Knowing this guy he probably messed something up and he can't face Gun alone.

"You're buying" I retorted

We walked past Mark's building, and I couldn't help but think about him.

Should I drop by ? Should I ask if he needs helps ? 

Probably not, knowing him he'd run away if I get even remotely ask anything about him

He made it clear that he doesn't want anything else with me and I'm not even sure I can provide something else either.

"Oh hey Nong how are the preparation going ?" Kai said bringing me back to reality.

 "We're pretty much done with everything you should drop by everyone will be happy to see you" Dean said visibly proud of himself "Thanks to you too P Vee you were a real life saver today" he continued with a goofy smile.