Did I just openly admit to Crimson that I was gay? Oh my shit...what if he's homophobic!? What if he thinks of me differently!? Oh my shit shit shit shit great going Butler, i try keeping the smile on my face without looking like a total idiot, then i see crimson look up then he says "your gay?" "uh yeah..." i said looking at my feet, "so am I." he said back with a smile. "r...r...really?!" i say as my eyes widen. "mmhmm" he says laying down on his bed, i get up and lay next to him. As we lay there laughing and telling each other about ourselves, i learned about Crims dad and mom, and about his self ham and eating disorder, also about his friend brent and what he did after i left, i could listen to him talk for hours, and hours and hours. He told me when he came out to his parents. I also told him about myself, about London, Collin, Me coming out to my dad. You must be woundering what happened to my mom, she drowned while trying to teach me to swim when i was four, ironic right...
As we start to get quiet, I look at Crims different colored eyes, they were so beautiful, "awh shit..." i hear him say... "what?" i said confused, "well Mr.Butler...it seems to me that i am starting to fall for you..." he said closing his eyes, "Well then there is also another problem here" i reply "and what is that?" he said opening his eyes, "i think im falling for you to." he blushes and we both lean in, when our lips collide, it is the most greatest feeling ever, he makes a risky move and he slowly and gently slides his tounge across my lower lip, for entrance of course being a weakling i let him in. His tounge slowly slides in my mouth discovering every inch of it, as we break away we look into each others eyes.
i hear Crims dad call "Butler your leaving now!" i smile at Crim "It seems that the king has ordered me to go now" "oh no he cannot take my Prince away!" Crim yelled. "I must go my princess, but i will get to see you tomorrow!" i said. "So we are a thing now?" Crim replied with a blush, "yes" i told him with a kiss, and then i left.
