Enjoy :) -J
*In my room*
I lay in bed waiting for Ezra to come. Ezra just walked through the door but he doesn't close it.
"Do you want me to sleep on the couch down stairs?" Ezra says, witch took me as surprise.
"You can stay with me!" I say
"I think I should sleep down stairs" He says
"Why" I say raising my voice
"Because we just got back together and I think that we just shouldn't be in bed together for tonight" he says
"Seriously" I say loudly "you know what don't answer that just go home" I yell
"Aria" he says
"I'll talk to you tomorrow" I say and turn over so I'm not facing him anymore
"Fine" he say and slams the door behind him
Tears came streaming out of my eyes and went onto my new white pillow case.
"Aria" I heard mum saying and she walks over to me
"Please I don't want to talk about it Mum" I say
"Aria, what happened" She says
"Just leave me alone" I say and she then leaves the room.
I pulled the sheets closer to my body and then I buried my face into my pillow and screamed. Is this how it's going to be? All these fights and yelling at each other. Not being able to touch each other or say 'I love you' anymore. I miss the hugs he gave me at night and all the little kisses he used to give me on my head. I miss him so much, but I feel like everything is just falling apart. All the lies and fights are coming back to me the words we said to each other. The way he's looks when he's about to cry or about to say something but it doesn't come out. When he used to walk out of the shower with a towel wrapped around him, he always had a cheeky grin on he's face as he sees me looking at he's body. He always used to make me laugh when the worst thing is happening or say the right things to make me feel better. Just lately nothing has been coming out as good. Every time we try to get back to what we have, something little always gets in the way. Maybe the baby will bring happiness to our lives. We will just see how lucky we are to have each other and to have a kid of our own. We will see that there is no reason to fight anymore. To cry. To run or to yell at each other. I just hope that everything turns out okay. 'yoυ ĸnow wнaт ι тнιnĸ aвoυт нope, ιт вreadѕ ιnтernal мιѕery!' those words just came to my head thinking about what Spencer says about hope. People use the word hope as a definition as expectation or desire towards something that they want to happen. It's a word of trust. Of luck. Lately I haven't felt luck in anything! Everything has fucked up and nothing has gone my way or even Ezra's. I'm just sick of it.
