"Guys wha-", he stuttered and took two steps back. I didn't know what to say and obviously neither did Kellin, so we just sat there in awkward silence with Jaime staring at us in shock.
"Okay. Okay.", Jaime sad and his voice sounded a bit hysteric. I could see, that it took him all of his self-control not to freak out. His eyes were filled with tears and it confused me. "Jaime? You okay man?", I asked. Jaime kept staring at us and he shook his head again and again. He stepped backwards and (probably) ran into his room. I sat up and so did Kellin. He sighed. "What's with Jaime?", he asked me. I mumbled a short: "Dunno..", as an answer. I got up, but Kellin stopped me from going away by grabbing my arm. "Vic?", He said, "What's wrong?"
I shrugged and went downstairs.
I loved Kellin, yes. But I felt so damn bad for Jaime. I couldn't believe what just happened. I got a bottle of water and went to my room again. The others just looked at me suspiciously but I didn't talk to them.
I drank a bottle of water and got into bed. I fell asleep immediately but I had a weird dream. Kellin and me were kissing somewhere and Jaime came in and totally freaked out. He shoot Kellin, then me and that's when I woke up. I didn't fall asleep after that again.
The next morning we all had breakfast together. I talked to Jesse and Mike a bit, but Jaime ignored me completely and I did the same to him. I tried to ignore Kellin but I couldn't. I kept looking at him and a few times he was already looking at me and I felt myself blushing. We arrived in London, our next tour stop. As we got there, we still had plenty of time so we went sightseeing a bit. We met a few fans and it was so much fun. When the others went to the bathroom, I decided to talk to Kellin: "Kellin, I- I'm sorry that I just.. Kind of ran away yesterday. It was just.. I don't know. I'm sorry."
He smiled at me. "It's fine Vic. Don't worry.", he said.
"Okay um.. This is gonna be awkward... Shit. So.. Are we like.. Are we...?", I stuttered. I just couldn't say it. "I'd love to", Kellin whispered into my ear, "But only if you want to, too."
I nodded. "Yes of course!", I said.
He grinned and kissed me. I was sure, that this was exactly like a perfect kiss was supposed to feel like.
After the concert, that was fun, as always, we all went to drink something. I wanted to talk to Jaime.
"Jaime? Can we talk?", I asked.
"Sure.", he answered and we moved a bit away from the others. I tried to find a start: "Jaime.. That with Kellin last night... I don't know."
"Vic, it's okay. It was just me. Being naive..." ... "thinking that someone like you would like someone like me..." He added mumbling. I heard it. "Jaime I do like you. I fucking love you you're an amazing person and my best friend. I need you and I don't want us to argue or something.", I said.
He sighed: "I knew you wouldn't understand." His eyes were filled with tears again. He tried to walk away but I stopped him. "Jaime please." He gave me one last look and I could see tears streaming out of his eyes, and I had the sudden urge to wipe them away and kiss him. I knew I couldn't and I knew I wouldn't. He walked out of the bar.
