Breathing In Life // Dreamnotfound

Invitation

George's POV~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

"DREAM!" I yelled in fear

Currently running away from Dream's character. Sadly, I couldn't run away in time

"OH GEORGE" He yelled in the mic. It was scary to hear him. I was glad I didn't have heart problems or else I probably would have had a heart attack in this moment

"NOOO" I yelled once again as he hit me in-game. With another hit from him my screen showed that I had died. I groaned in annoyance as Dream started wheezing

"HAHAHA, Oh my god George" He said excitedly. It was clear he was out of breath

What I would give...

"George?" Dream said confused. I had only now realized he had been calling my name

"Huh? Sorry I spaced out" I said calmly. I heard him snicker

"Are you mad that i killed you?" He said now laughing once again

"Yeah totally... But that was so unfair. You came out of NOWHERE?" I said annoyed. I heard him start wheezing once again. I joined laughing with him but not wheezing like him.

"Well, i have to go its getting really late over here" I said calmly. I heard him huff before replying to me

"You're leaving me? How rude George" He said a sad tone that was yet playful. I rolled my eyes even though he couldn't see me

"Yeah im leaving you for sleep" I said with a smile laugh

"Goodnight George" He said calmly

"Goodnight Dream" I replied. Soon i left the VC and turned my PC off. I got up and headed to the bathroom

I took some pills out of the medicine cabinet, i took my daily dose before getting ready for bed

I laid down on my bed staring at the ceiling. I started thinking about my situation

At the beginning of the week I had gotten a letter from the mail about a hospital in Florida. They said that they wanted me to participate in a program to help people with cystic fibrosis. Apparently they wanted to see if the program would help people with the disease so they can start planning on having the program expand and get donation's to fund it

My mom had made it clear to me that if I didn't want to go I didn't have to. But I wanted to go. It gave me the ability to visit America just like I had always wished to do. However, overwhelming guilt followed that dream

I wanted to visit America and all the places I've seen in the movies with my friends. But because of my condition I can't. I especially cant when no one knows I'm sick in the first place

Only me and my parents know about my disease and I've wanted to keep it that way. Its not that it was looked down upon them or anything. If anything they wanted me to tell them about it but I just couldn't. I felt like I would be treated differently, I would be pitied on and I didn't want that

It made me feel small and it made me feel useless

If I agreed to the invitation then I would just feel guilty because there's no way I would be able to record any videos or go live in the hospital. I would be engulfed in guilt because then that means I would be so close to Dream and not even be able to see him because I'm too scared to tell him

I shook away my thought's before I wouldn't be able to sleep. I tried my best to fall asleep but as I got tired I couldn't help the feeling of anxiety and guilt holding me tightly

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"Are you sure you want to do this. If you want to do this than I will support you no matter what. I just want reassurance that you really want to do this" My mom gave me a small smile

I nodded understanding her worry

"Yeah, I mean worst case I don't get better but how much worse can I get" I explained myself to her. She nodded agreeing to my thought process

"I need to go make sure your hospital knows about the program and have all your information transferred" She patted my back before leaving the flat

I sighed as the door closed

Now I need to figure out how to tell everyone about the situation

I headed back to my room, turning my PC as I sat down on my chair. I don't upload as much simply because of how often i'm at the hospital. But when I get back home I take full advantage of my time.

I don't mind being called lazy simply because I put myself in that situation to be called one in the first place.

My room wasn't a mess but it also wasn't tidy either. I had bags and boxes around from the times I had to pack for a hospital visit that was longer than two weeks.

I went on discord and texted the group chat to go on a VC

Once everyone was on I tried my best to lie about the situation because I became a deer in headlights the moment they asked why I wanted to them to join a VC

"What do you want George?" Sapnap yelled annoyed through the mic. It was playful but it made me freeze as I didn't know what to say

"George?" I heard Dream call my name with a bit of worry. It made me feel bad about what I was about to say

"There's something going on... and I need to be away for a while" I said quietly. I started panicking as the call went quiet

"Can't you take a laptop with you or something? Why not tell the fans so they understand" Nick asked this time a little more serious

"Because..... because I'm going to be busy most of the time... and I don't want to worry the fans so I was hoping we can record a few videos for my channel and some for your guys is incase.." I replied, my voice was clearly shaking and I started trembling

I felt bad lying to them but I just cant bring myself to tell them whats really going on

What if they hate me for keeping it away from them?

What if they start making fun of me for it?

"And you're sure you cant record while you're gone? Where exactly are you going? Do you need us to help you?" Dream asked now worried laced in his words. It crushed me to hear it

"I- "

A/N

That's the end of this chapter, If for some reason you didn't read the description *Especially the disclaimer* PLEASE read it. Anyways, I hope you guys enjoy this chapter and I will see you in the next

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