Tyunning Oneshot Book

Absolutely Smitten

TW: gay panic?? Almost a panic attack??

Kai and Taehyun where sitting on Kai's lower bunk, playing "Cookie Run" on their phones and talking about random things.
The conversation seemed to die down, and they ended up just playing on their phones in silence.
When out of the blue, Taehyun nonchalantly asks
"Have you ever kissed anyone?"

Kai's heart stopped momentarily in his chest, and he silently turned off his phone and set it beside him.
".....noo....why do you ask...?" Kai slowly said, his heart picking up speed with every word.
"Just wondering" Taehyun said, still tapping away at his phone.
Kai calmed down at that, and went to pick his phone up, until Taehyun continued.
"Do you have a crush on anyone?"

Kai stopped, feeling his face flush with redness.
You see, Kai had a massive crush on someone, and that someone being the very person sitting across from him on his bunk.
Kai didn't know what to do in that moment, he didn't want to tell Taehyun he did, because if so Taehyun would ask who, and Kai was not about to confess to him right now.
But on the other hand if he said no, Taehyun would definitely be able to tell he was lying by his hesitation, because Taehyun knows him that well.

So instead of thinking, Kai just tried to change the subject, which backfired completely when all that came out of his mouth was a mess of words and stutters.
Taehyun knew something was up, Kai only stutters like that when he's nervous to talk about something.
So concerned Taehyun, meaning well, set his phone down and crawled closer towards Kai, sitting cross-legged right in front of him, close enough to where their knees where almost touching.

Kai was trying so hard to not look at Taehyun, as Taehyun grabbed his hands, and asked in a soft, concerned tone.
"Are you okay?"
'Great job Kai, you made him worried' Kai thought, mentally slapping himself in the face.
"O-of course!"
Kai stuttered again, which made Taehyun even more concerned.

Taehyun let go of Kai's hands, and softly grabbed his chin, turning his face towards him.
"You know I can tell when you're lying"
Kai felt guilty at making Taehyun so worried, he really wanted to say nothing was wrong, but everytime he spoke, he choked on his words, and Taehyun would just become more worried.
So Kai stayed silent, fixing his gaze on Taehyun's shoulder, not looking him in the eyes at all.
"Please look at me Hyuka, I'm concerned for you"

Kai couldn't resist Taehyun's soft voice, and cautiously made eye contact with Taehyun.
"What's going on Hyuka? Please tell me" Taehyun said.
Kai couldn't hide it any longer, he had to tell Taehyun, he had to tell him everything.

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Taehyun sat back as Kai finished talking.
Kai hid his face in his hands, wanting to hide from rejection and embarrassment.
Kai was a complete mess right now, his heart was beating rapidly, cold sweat dripped down the back of his neck, and his hands where shaking.
Taehyun smiled, and grabbed a hold of Kai's hands, pulling them away from his face.

Taehyun shifted even closer to Kai, almost in his lap, and leaned in towards his face, not letting go of Kai's shaking hands.
"I like you too" Taehyun said, right above Kai's lips.
If Kai thought he was nervous before, it was nothing compared to the panic welling inside him.
His heart dropped to his feet as he felt Taehyun's lips against his, making him lean back into the bed-frame.

Kai's heart was beating so loud, he was certain Beomgyu and Soobin in their room next door could hear it through the wall.
Kai's mind was completely in shambles at the event that was happening.
Kai thanked the lord they weren't standing, or else he was certain by now his knees and ankles would've buckled under him, and he would've been dragged to the ground as if there where weights on his wrists.

Kai could feel his lungs running out of air, and blood rushing in his ears, accompanied by a loud ringing.
Water flooded his eyes, he didn't know what to do.
It's not that he didn't want to kiss Taehyun, it was just that he had never kissed anyone before, and he was not excepting his first one to be his crush of about 4 years.
Taehyun however seemed the upmost calm, and he didn't know how.

Kai's breath started picking up speed against Taehyun's lips.
Kai somehow managed to escape his right hand from Taehyun's grasp.
With a shaking hand, he placed it on Taehyun's back, and gripped at his oversized, silk t-shirt.
Taehyun thankfully understood, and separated from Kai, sitting back.

Kai opened his eyes, and his vision was blurry from the mess of tears that flooded his eyes.
Kai took fast breaths, not only from losing breath because of Taehyun kissing him, but also out of panic...because of Taehyun kissing him.

Taehyun placed a hand on Kai's chest,and said
"Omg Kai I'm sorry, I did not know you would react that way, please calm down okay? Deep breaths"
Kai did as he was told, and eventually his breathing evened out.
As Kai finally calmed down, he shyly said,
"It's not that I didn't like it or want you to, it was just...that it was you, and please don't take that in a bad way, I was just really nervous, because I really like you..."
"It's okay, I should've asked you first, but I just got confidence when you confessed to me, because...I have liked you for so long"