I walked into the cafeteria with Damion. His arm around my shoulders, and he was cracking jokes and I was dying.
I sat down with Desmond and I guess I can say my squad now. " Aye Brookie! " Keyshawn said. " Hey. " I smiled. " Wassup. " Desmond looked up from his phone. " Nothing. " I said. I tapped the seat for Damion to sit down next to me. Desmond just went back to his phone.
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I walked into class and sat down next to Desmond. He had headphones in and he looked tired and depressed. " Hey, you okay? " I asked taking out one of his earphones. He licked his lips and bit on his bottom lip showing his sharp fangs and nodded.
I knew he was lying.
-Desmond -
I was in gym changing into some basketball shorts, and a black wife beater, with my jordans, when I heard Damion.
" I mean she pretty and all but I really trying to get with her. Plus what's his name?....... Desmond want her she stupid if she don't see that. " Damion voices echoed in my ears. I just listened, I didn't want to do anything.
" I guess. You like her? " Someone else asked. " Naw man. " He said. I shook my head and walked out. Should I tell her? Naw that's gone start drama.
I walked onto the bench, not even paying any mind to Brook and Joyce. But they walked to me, but I really wanted to be by myself.
" Hey why you gotta be by yourself? " Joyce asked. I shrugged. Everything she said I just shrugged or ignored them. " Wanna be alone? " Brook finally said something. But she read my mind. I nodded, and she hugged me and I took a deep breath. She smelt like soap, and that Japanese Cherry Blossom perfume and walked away.
I rubbed my lips together and wiped my hand over my face. I'm having a moment like those girls do most of the time. When they're mad, depressed, and tired for no reason. When they feel like the world is empty, so its like fuck the world fuck everyone. Like come up to me and say something i'ma cuss you out.
Then coach blew the whistle, and i stood up slowly. I walked to the huddle, like when you're on the basketball team. " We're working out today and exercising. Would anyone like to lead us in exercise? " She asked and Brook's hand shot up. She nodded and everyone spread out .
Brook sat down with her legs wide open and leaned to the right, with her left arm over her head. Her natural hair flipped to the right, and before she switched she put it into a ponytail.
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After gym I went into the boys locker room and grabbed my stuff. I walked out, seeing Joyce and Brook waiting for me. Brook had a worried look on her face, like she didn't want to be there. Joyce was smiling and I walked past them. " Hey what's up with you? " Joyce said grabbing my bicep. I slapped her hand away and she frowned her eyebrows." Just leave me alone." I shook my head.
Brook ran past me down the hall probably to coach Jessica's office. I was going to stay, but i'm not in the mood. I just walked to the parking lot and got onto my motorcycle and headed home. I'll call Brook later or some.
I walked into my house and smelt fried fish, green beans, mash potatoes, and macaroni. I went into the kitchen, seeing mama and Jade my sister cooking. " Hey. " I said dully. " Hey, baby how was school? " Mama asked. " Fine. " I shrugged. " Why didn't you stay afterwards, you know you love watching them volleyball girls. " Jade teased. " Wasn't in the mood. " I said. " Something's wrong. Wanna talk about it? " Jade asked.
I shook my head and went upstairs. I love Jade, she might be younger than me, but we have a stronger bond out of all my siblings. I can tell her everything, like if I got a girl pregnant or whatever. I mean she'd tell mama, but I trust her, because she don't treat me like shit or get on my nerves 24/7. I mean she gets on my nerves plenty of times, because that's what younger siblings do, but she matured a lot more. She doesn't freak out on everything, she gives me advice, or laughs with me, or tells me her thoughts about it. I call that a true sister.
I stepped out the shower, with a towel around my waist and neck. I should let my hair grow out, but I don't think it would look right.
I put on some gray joggers, and a black wife beater. I moisturized my hair, then just laid on my bed looking at the ceiling. There was a knock on my door, and I didn't answer. I waited a few seconds, and it came again. " What?! " I said clearly annoyed.
" You're not the only one hurting you know. " Jade walked into my room. " I'm fine. Just need to be alone. " I replied. She shook her head. " No. You need to release some stress. Even if there's no reason. " She sat on my bed. " I'm just having a moment ya know. " I wiped my face. " I don't know what's up. " I shrugged slapping my hand on the bed. " Oh well then we can just talk, because something's going on with me. " She blew out a sigh.
She twisted the this ocean blue and gold ring around her ring finger on her right hand.
" Who gave that to you? " I asked my eyebrows frowned. " This guy i'm seeing. " She huffed. It makes me mad that some guy is hitting on my sister, but I can't be mad really, because i'm ' hitting ' on some girl I like. So I can't be. I mean who wouldn't be attracted to Jade, she's so freaking pretty. She a smooth caramel, with hazel eyes, and dark hair, with honey blonde ends, and pink brown full lips, with long dark eyelashes, and dimples. Plus she's a little curvy. Especially for a girl whose 5.6 and a half.
Everyone in my family has hazel eyes except my little brother. I have hazel eyes, I always wear brown contacts, because I like to fit in.
" Tell me about him first. " I said sitting up with one leg hanging off my bed and the other bent in like a four. My sis sat Indian style, meaning its a long story. But hey! I'm willing to listen.
" Okay, so his name is Lee and he's 16. I really like him you know, and I think he likes me i'm not sure, because you never know what a person thinks. Even if they're telling the truth, and that's scares me a little. " She said and I nodded. There was a moment of silence for a couple minutes. Then I started to think if Brook even likes me.
" Anyway. " She continued. " We were in class today and I saw him cuddled with this other girl. She was so pretty, too, so I was kind of jealous. Even though we don't date, but he's mine. Like he's mine but he isn't. We're talking we act like a couple, but we don't date. So I just sat on the other side of the room, and he figured something was up with me, so he came and talked to me. " She said " Then I got this huge attitude, which I really need to work on. " She chuckled a little looking at the bed and pushing her hands down in front of her.
Its so cute how she talks with her hands, but it isn't, because I do it too. She looked up at me brushing her natural curly hair out her face. " Then he got mad cussing me out, calling me out my name. So I cut him off for a week. But I really miss him and I want to call him, but I can't because he'll ignore me, or answer then cuss me out or have a stank ass attitude. " She said wiping her hands over her face.
" Give me advice. " She slapped her hands on her thighs. " Well give him space, for a while, because if he's like me he surely will have an attitude. But you should watch him, because you still like him right? " I asked and she nodded quickly. " And you don't want to seem him with another girl. " I said. " No, he wouldn't do that, he's not like that. He's really sweet, smart, but also bipolar almost worse than you. And I think he has anger problems. " She said putting on some carmax.
" Still watch him, because some guys could play tricks. Like you said you never know anybodies thoughts or feelings, even if they're telling the truth. " I shrugged. " True, but I didn't mean it in that way. Words are empty, unless you have actions that follow them. " She said.
