Dead Fowers

A Sad Day In January - Part 2

It's true

I tried to run from the pain

But look at me now

Do I look like I escaped it at all?

The suffering I'd gain

That is plain

Avoiding you only made everything worse

I got stuck on reverse

Lost on dead in the tracks

You'll be ashamed

Of what I started to do to fill the void

It became an obsession

That part of my life I wish to avoid

I hanged by a thread

My new reality

I was running again

I couldn't face you

And you didn't wanted me to

I still fight today

Against that journey with no return

I try to stay

And deep down I don't want to cross that line

You know it

You know me even better then I knew myself

You knew it yourself

Laughing shaking your head

There was nothing to be said

When you smiled

That smile that was worth entire galaxies

And those red locks dancing

A beautiful view

A laugh capable of wrecking my world

I found someone just like you

With that soul pure and adventurous as poppy fields

A force that never wields

I know that you're dead

Sometimes you two seem the same person

The same stubbornness and the same wrath

I'm still paralyzed when I hear your name

But I choose this path

This is what I've became

You know I much I hate my weakness

And this days your name seems to be engraved in the walls of my brain

To explain this pain

I continue to look for reasons

Even with the passing seasons

I cannot stop missing you

I'm silly

I know

But can you blame me really

For writing this pseudo letter

I think I'm finally accepting this

I care for you

Truly I hope

That time cures all wounds

But it has been 4 years

And I'm still here writing

Hiding

I'm sorry

We'll see each other someday

Not this Monday

Nor this May

Not soon

That I can promise

Credit for the art of this chapter to Heylenne link to the tumblr below

https://heylenne.tumblr.com/