I wish I could talk the way I write...
I wish I knew how to tell you what's on my mind...
I wish I could...
Because I would tell you that I'm scared shitless to lose you, that I can't help but to selfishly want you for myself at times.
I would tell you that my heart wants to jump out of its chest every time you say you love me, and that I feel butterflies all over my body when I think of us kissing... I would tell you that I wanna hold on to every single moment spent with you and save it like a treasure in an old wooden chest. I would tell you that fighting with you makes my heart ache deeply and that your pains, I feel them too. I would tell you that my heart is in your hands and that I'm scared like hell that you might let it fall and break in pieces... that I don't even want to think of that happening with you...
I would tell you that the distance we're experiencing frightens me... and that my eyes fill with tears when I know I can't see you yet. I would tell you that I try to be strong when talking to you, but that my soul screams inside as my heart cries in silence... I would tell you that you have all of me, even if you didn't want it; that I would love to sleep on your chest because the sound of your beating heart would sooth my constant anxiety... I would tell you that I would love to wake up before you in the morning and give you one thousand kisses as you awake when breakfast is ready... I would tell you that knowing you won't be around every night makes my heart cry... that my loneliness scares me.... I would tell you that I don't mean to push away ... this is just me coping with it... the distance scares me... I don't want to hurt... I don't want you to hurt... I just wanna tell you that I love you... I'm deeply, uncontrollably, passionately in love with you.
