had some drinks (yoonseok/sope oneshot) ( ▶ sope playlist #5 )

🥃 intoxicating 🥃

APRIL 10, 2021 - [i am manifesting, shhh]

It was time.

The derailed, abandoned Map of the Soul World Tour was set to begin tomorrow night.

After a year full of turmoil, standstill, uncertainty and pain, they were going to see Army. Face to face, so to speak.

Yoongi sat on the bed in his hotel room, eyeing the minibar in his suite.

He'd just returned to his hotel room. A morning with an overpacked schedule and an evening in the maknae's suite where he and the other six members ordered dinner and went live, sending flying kisses to Army.

He'd been counting down to this very moment, they all had. But now...

Yoongi drank, tossing back one shot, then two.

Then... he just stopped fucking counting.

He drank as if he was trying to save the world from drowning.

He drank. Hoping the flow of the cool liquid that burned his throat would wash away the pieces of himself that, perhaps selfishly, wished for someone else to inhabit his body for the duration of the concert.

Their performances this year had been either small scale or virtual up until this point and, although nothing was more important to him than delivering, he was admittedly and regrettably out of practice in checking his pre-performance emotions.

The thought occurred to him that the members, Army, would love him no matter what. And no matter how true it rang, logic had no business trying to insert itself into his shadowed thoughts.

It was easier to let himself wallow right now. And it may not have been the healthiest thing, but he knew his limits.

Fuck, he'd done the same thing while filming Daechwita and no one was impaled on the aluminum blade of his prop sword.

It was fine.

He heard his phone go off over on the nightstand. Rising, he pulled off his black hoodie and took another sip as he shuffled along in his slippers to grab it.

Probably Namjoon in the group chat wishing the members a good night's sleep, his boyfriend, Taehyung hijacking his phone to add, "Fighting!"

But it was a separate chat.

hwagae market

HOSEOK
hyung, you still awake

YOONGI
yeah

HOSEOK
guessing you can't sleep either

YOONGI
just having a drink

HOSEOK
don't drink alone

And what could Yoongi say to that?

Was he supposed to remind Hoseok that he often drank alone?

That he'd prefer if Hoseok drank with him? That he wanted Hoseok's company?

That he craved it, actually?

Before he even had a moment to formulate a response, there was a knock on his door.

Yoongi crossed the room and opened the latch for the peephole. Most of the crew was put up on this floor of the hotel as well, so this was probably a somewhat unnecessary step, but the members generally played it a bit extra cautious when on tour.