Desire

In His Dreams

TWENTYFOUR | San's P.O.V

"How's your hand?" I asked, looking at him as he rub his cast with a pout on his face.

"It still hurts kind of, but the pain medication is kicking in." He smiled weakly.

"I'm sorry Hongjoong. If it wasn't for me and Wooyoung...Seonghwa wouldn't have came at you like that." I frowned as guilt started to take over me.

"You're too hard on yourself Choi San. Don't you remember this whole thing started because of me anyway?" He raised an eyebrow while laying his good hand on my shoulder.

"Well you didn't know about it so you know it's somewhat okay." I tried to smile it off, but I could only feel how much pain Wooyoung was in after that day and how much it affected our relationship.

"That's the thing San...I did know about Wooyoung I just didn't care. I knew Seonghwa was younger than me too and that he was going to be my student. I was just really persistent and struck by him." He removed his hand from my shoulder, and failed to make eye contact knowing what he just said would have only one of two effects on me: anger or sadness.

Trying my best to keep my composure, I could only think about Wooyoung's pain which made me even more upset. Grabbing him by the collar I almost punched him until I heard the chaos behind us.

"One male, probably in his late teens. He's coming in with at least 10 bruises, external bleeding on the head, possible concussion, internal bleeding as well and broken ribs. Prep the surgery room...get Dr. Hung." I heard one lady yell to the nurse that was right beside us checking on Hongjoong's prescription.

"I'm so sorry, please wait here." She said urgently as she ran towards the back.

Stepping aside, with Hongjoong doing the same we could hear a gurney that was quickly approaching.

"Wooyoung please stay with me okay. You're going to be okay." Immediately turning my attention towards the approaching gurney all I could do was stand still.

Everything within me stopped working including my heartbeat for minute. Nothing but him became visible. All the noises around me became muffled including the doctors. I could feel the tightening in my chest, and I could feel my breathing becoming more and more unsteady each second. All I could see was blood everywhere. Blood was running down his mouth and his head. I was so zoomed in on him that I could hear him gasp for air, and struggle to breathe due to the blood coming from his mouth which made him turn his head to the side. His dark, almost lifeless brown eyes stared unconsciously towards mine as tears left his eyes. Slowly I could feel myself get weak as tears jolted down my cheeks as I saw his almost lifeless state.

"SAN!" "SAN!" "SANNIE!"

Feeling a sharp pain in my shoulder I slowly came back to reality, and looked at Hongjoong in panic. "Breathe it's going to be okay... he's going to be okay."

Trying to get back on a sturdy breathing pattern, I was sucked back into his gaze. Blinking slowly while he attempted to showcase a smile on his face, but he ended up coughing instead due to him choking on his own blood. Looking at me with everything he had he mouthed the words I love you, and I started to feel my whole world crash infront of my eyes.

"CODE BLUE! CODE BLUE! We're losing him! We're losing him! He's going into cardiac arrest! Come on kid stay with me okay! Please stay with me! " Dropping to my knees, all I could do was cry.

As soon as I saw him disappearing from my vision I got up, and ran towards the moving gurney and the doctors and nurses following behind along with his mom who was barely keeping it together. Reaching the operating room viewing gallery, I pressed my forehead against the glass and hoped for the best.

"You must be Choi San...his lover." I heard a raspy but feminine voice ask.
Turning towards the voice I saw his mom who was sitting on the floor with her back pressed against the wall with tissues in each hand.

Nodding my head yes, a smile appeared on her face as more tears started to fall. "I'm surprised you said yes. Considering you two broke up just recently?"

"How do you know all this?" I asked wiping the tears from my face.

"Well you look a little older to be one of his friends. Plus you're all he ever talks about to his brother-" stopping mid-sentance she couldn't help but cry harder. "-he always had the biggest smile on his face whenever he mentioned your name. Then one day...just recently it all stopped. He came back home, he barely ate or interacted with his little brother, and would always look as if he'd been crying for hours straight."

Before I could say anything she gave me hug and continued to cry in my arms, and I couldn't help but do the same.

***

"Coma?!" She yelled, tears yet again streaming down her face like a river. "For how long?"

"I'm sorry Mrs but we can't tell. However, he did lose a lot of blood and there was a lot of internal bleeding as well so we would like to ask you a few questions about what exactly happened to him." He spoke while adjusting his IV.

As they left the room I sat down in the chair next to him and grabbed his hand. Salty tears started pouring down my face feeling nothing but a burning sensation. Moving his hair out of his face with my other hand I cleared my throat, "When I said I didn't want you in my life anymore..." Gripping his hand even tighter I leaned my head on the space in the bed and moved his hand towards my chest, "I didn't mean this. You haven't even given me a chance to completely forgive you yet. I can't let those be the last words I ever said to you. Plus you have to graduate and go to college and get married and have kids. You have a family that's waiting for you and friends too. And you have me. You hear that, you have me. S-so pl-please wake up. We all need you here."

***

Wooyoung's P.O.V

"I love you so much you know that. After this whole high school crap ends I promise you... I'll make you mine forever." He smiled while pulling me into a smothering hug.

"Good because I love you too, and I really can't see myself with anyone other than you. You showed me what's it like to actually feel loved and cared for." I smiled back while nuzzling my head on his chest. "Do you think I will I'll have enough strength to go to school tomorrow...my body is going to ache so bad when I get up in the morning?" I raised an eyebrow while continued to play with his fingers.

"Why you want to go a fourth time?" He whispered while a smirk formed on his lips.

"No! You're such a horny man. I just want to lay here in your arms until it's time to go." I looked up at him, his chocolate brown eyes staring back into mine passionately.

Turning back around he made sure there was no space between us as he cuddled me. All I could feel was the wholesomeness of being wrapped around in his arms. How safe I felt and how I wish this could never end.