Shouldn't feel, like a crime

02

              𝑺𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝑭𝒆𝒆𝒍, 𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝑪𝒓𝒊𝒎𝒆
                       𝑳𝒖𝒏𝒂 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅
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Effy's POV;

It honestly felt like eternity until the bus showed up, my head snapped to the right as the bus started coming into view. I grinned and stood up, reaching into my bag for my bus card. The doors smoothly opened and I stepped in carefully, I swiped my card and the bus driver smiled at me, I half-smiled at him and walked towards the back. The back seats were never taken, nobody preferred to sit alone, but me, oh I sure loved it. I loved the silence, I loved the comfort feeling it gave me. I felt relaxed, plus, I didn't have to see, talk nor sit beside anyone without the fear of accidentally lashing out on them.

The bus started up, I just kept my gaze on the windows. Watching the outside, watching couples, families laughing and smiling with each other. The fast yet heartwarming sight did bring the corner of my lips into a curl. My eyes gleamed as I noticed how the sky had turned grey, it was so sunny in the morning, what had happened? It didn't matter. I loved rainy weather. It was comforting to me, it made me feel sleepy and at home. I shook out of my thoughts when I noticed I had missed my stop, "Dammit!" I stood up forcefully and ran towards the nearest doors. "Sir! May you please let me out here!" I shouted towards the front, the doors opened and I yelled a raspy "thank you" before rushing out into the streets. My legs quivering as all the running was tiring me out, I reached for my pocket and checked the time on my phone. It read "8:25 am" I gulped, "Shit." I couldn't afford to be late once again. I would get into so much trouble. I ran twice as faster as I already was, I ignored the uncomfortable feeling in my chest and kept running until the entrance of my school came into my sight. My speed slowed down and soon enough my breath was returning to its normal pattern. As soon as my feet took a step in the school, the bell rung. Just in time. Perfect. I raced down the halls, turning a few lefts and rights to get to my classroom.

I slowed down and fixed my posture before knocking on the door, "Come in" I heard from the other side of the door. I turned the doorknob slowly and first peeked my head into the classroom. I noticed everyone was still taking off their backpacks and settling into their seats comfortably. My eyes closed as I sighed in relief. I fully stepped in and closed the door behind me, focusing on my desk only. I felt eyes burning into the back of my head, I could feel everyone's gaze on me. Almost everyone in the school knew about my anger issues and how they affected me. I don't exactly know how it spread.

Why does everyone even care?

Why don't people just mind their own goddamn business?

I took off my bag that was slightly hung over my shoulder and my shoulders instantly relaxed at the heavy weight suddenly lifted off. I sat in my seat and leaned back comfortably, "Okay class, today we'll be looking more into algebra, we shall continue on what we started yesterday." not long after, annoyed groans were heard from the entire class except me. I wasn't bothered by the subject or anything, I was just bothered by my teacher's high pitched annoying voice. "Class come on now, it'll be fun I promise!" She exclaimed in a squeaky manner. Her voice rang loud throughout my ears as my eyes squinted uncomfortably. I rolled my eyes,

I already wanted to go home.

An hour had had flown by so soon, We were on a quick snack break. Our teacher gave us snack small breaks unlike the other classes, she was quite nice if I may say so, her voice and her being constantly fueled up on happiness and giggles just annoyed me, so much. I mean, you understand right? How can someone be so happy all the time? It made me gag.