Shouldn't feel, like a crime

04

             𝑺𝒉𝒐𝒖𝒍𝒅𝒏'𝒕 𝑭𝒆𝒆𝒍, 𝑳𝒊𝒌𝒆 𝒂 𝑪𝒓𝒊𝒎𝒆
𝑳𝒖𝒏𝒂 𝑳𝒐𝒗𝒆𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅
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Effy's POV;

The days flew by way too quick, it happened so fast that it all felt, fake? It also felt quite scary if I may say, I mean, this was really happening. I was actually going to London. I was leaving New York, and I was most likely not going to see Lexi for a very long period of time. It made me feel down. The thought of it, the thought of leaving Lexi, all alone. It hurt me deeply, my feelings for her had skyrocketed after meeting up at the park. What was I going to do now? Just forget about her and start a new life in London? Just forget about all the memories I've had in New York? Thinking about all of it just made me highly uncomfortable, I never saw this coming. It was so unexpected. A loud and clear voice interrupted me out of my thoughts, "Effy!" I heard from downstairs. "Yeah?!" I slightly yelled back, "Are you almost done?" I hesitated and yelled back an "almost" not wanting to leave just yet, silently hoping we could stay forever.

Just stall for a few more minutes..

I closed my eyes and inhaled nervously, the familiar scent of my room slowly rushing into my nostrils, I smiled. This is home. I felt safe. My mind ran through memories, my smile just getting wider, yet my heart breaking more by the second. I wanted to stay trapped in my thoughts but I was once again interrupted, "Effy we gotta go!" My mother's voice rang through the walls. I sighed, opening my eyes as my head lowered. I reached for my suitcase and walked a few steps forward, while raising my head. My eyes scanned the whole room. A room that used to be vibrant, warm colours ruining the perfect white walls. Now, there were no colours, it looked soulless. Looked empty, depressing.

I walked out. Quietly closing the door behind me, not looking back. Resisting the temptation to run back in there and jump on my bed without a care in the world. Those silly thoughts were pushed to the back of my mind as I headed down the stairs, seeing my mother's excited face. Our energy gave off different vibes.
Both our faces showed diverse emotions, one's face showed such excitement and the other's face showed nothing but pure sadness and sorrow. I met my mother's eyes, she smiled as I on the other hand, blankly blinked. "We should start heading to the airport, our plane leaves in 2 hours" She happily exclaimed, I started walking towards the front door with all my luggage. I stopped and looked at the old drawings on the walls, the drawings I drew when I was younger. I smiled softly, soon opening the door and walking towards the car, my mood visibly seemed quite odd from my mood a couple weeks ago. I opened the trunk and put all the luggage in, not one peep coming from my mouth. I helped my mother put her luggage as she patted my head, "Thanks honey" she went around the car and got into the driver's seat. I closed the trunk as my head tilted towards our house. Memories once again rushing through my mind. I looked away, not wanting to cry on the spot. I inhaled and exhaled, getting into the backseat of the car. "Are you ready to go?" Mother asked as she looked at me through the rearview mirror, all I could mumble was a quiet "mhm" as she started the car.

And we were off..

My head leaned against the car window, focusing on the passing people, then focusing on the sky. I stared, and stared. Completely lost in my own ridiculous imagination, until my phone dinged. I looked at the notification, "New Message" I hesitated before clicking on it.

My eyes scanned across the screen, reading the name out in my head.

Lexi

I gulped.