is it her? ➢ 𝘬. 𝘬𝘦𝘯𝘮𝘢

chapter twenty nine

"atsuko, wake up."

my eyes slowly flutter open at the sound of kenma's voice. i lift my head off his chest. "hm..?"

"it's almost time to go." kenma gives me a kiss on my forehead.

"go.. where?"

"..school."

"school?!"

"yeah. it's monday."

"oh my fuck." i quickly get off of kenma and stand next to my bed. "wait, you slept over?"

he nods. "my dad brought my uniform earlier."

"aww~" i give kenma a small smile before grabbing my uniform from my closet and going to the bathroom to do my morning routine.

after doing my morning stuff, kenma and i head downstairs, having breakfast with morisuke and my mother. we then head to the train station, and school.

"can you come to morning practice." kenma questions as we walk through the school gates, hand in hand.

"don't i always?"

"yeah, but-"

"no buts. i'm happy as long as i get to see you."

kenma brings my hand up to his mouth and softly kisses it as we continue to the gymnasium.

i sit on the bench as the boys are changing in the locker rooms. kuroo's the first to come out, nearing the bench and sitting next to me, and very close at that.

"what could you possibly want."

"there's really something i have to do and tell you."

"well?"

"atsuko, i think you're an amazing girl and-"

"kuroo, stop with this nonsense."

"it's not nonsense." kuroo leans in closer to my face. "i really like you."

"kuroo-"

i'm stopped as kuroo smashes his lips into mine. what the hell is he doing?! i quickly pull away and look at him with widened eyes while wiping my lips off with my hand.

"atsuko. what. the. fuck." kenma stands in front of kuroo and i with furrowed eyebrows, still in his school uniform.

"kenma-" i start.

"don't 'kenma' me. and you, what the fuck?" kenma looks to kuroo.

"i-" kuroo starts.

"whatever, i knew you weren't as perfect as i thought." kenma scoffs while looking at me and walks away, out of the gymnasium, completely unfazed by practice. he didn't mean that, right..?

i look to kuroo, my eyes starting to water. "i really fucking hate you right now. why would you do that?!" i raise my voice at kuroo, tempted to punch the shit out of him like kenma did to that boy at the hotel.

"i had to let you know how i really feel.."

"that doesn't mean you kiss me! i want to kill you right now." i get up from the bench and swing my bag over my shoulder, leaving the gymnasium to find kenma.

i wipe my eyes while walking around the school courtyard. where the hell would kenma be?

the bell for first period rings as i'm still looking. i'm about to explode from the bottled up anger inside of me. i head up to my class, a few minutes late.

"what's wrong? kuroo wouldn't talk to me." morisuke says as we walk out of our classroom for the next class. i don't answer.

"helloooo, earth to atsuko." morisuke waves a hand in front of my face.

"i don't want to talk about it."

"atsuko." morisuke grasps my wrist.

"stop it, morisuke." i shake out of his grip and walk away, heading to the courtyard instead of the cafeteria. i look around for kenma before sitting down on a bench, underneath a cherry blossom tree and taking out my bento box. i place it in my lap and begin to eat as tears fill my eyes. i really shouldn't be crying over something like this, but i am.

"atsuko-chan?"

i look up from my lap to lev. his facial expression changes as he quickly sits down next to me and wipes my cheek.

"what's wrong?" he questions in pure worry. i shake my head.

"nothing.."

"okay, you can lay your head on my shoulder if you want." lev takes his bag strap off of his shoulder. i don't hesitate to tilt my head onto lev's shoulder.

"do you have lunch?" i question while eating out of my bento box.

"mhm!" lev reaches down for his bag and pulls out his bento box.

"how'd you find me?" i ask lev as we both each our lunches.

"demon-senpai said you'd probably be here."

"oh."

lev stays with me until it's time to go. we walk with each other to the gymnasium.

as we near the gymnasium, i spot kenma about to step into it. i quickly walk to catch up to him.

"kenma." i lightly grasp his wrist, similar to how morisuke grabbed mine.

"atsuko, i really don't want to talk to you right now." he shakes out of my grasp.

"kenma, it wasn't my fault. it's not my fault kuroo confessed his fucking love to me. it's-"

"atsuko, i have to get changed." kenma walks off, towards the locker room.

"kenma.." i watch him walk away. i softly sigh and go over to the bench, sitting down and waiting for practice to start.

kuroo comes over to me as he comes out of the locker room. don't even.

"atsuko, i'm sorry."

"no, you aren't." i don't make eye contact with him as he speaks.

"yes, i actually am. i didn't think kenma would say something like that."

"why does it matter to you? you fucked up my relationship with him." i look up to kuroo.

"slap me."

"what?"

"slap me. i deserve it."

gladly. i don't hesitate to get up from the bench. kuroo crouches down a bit so i can properly reach his face. i put all the anger bottled up from today into the slap.

kuroo yelps out in pain as my hand reaches his cheek. he makes out the words, "thanks."

i flip him off with a smile and sit back down on the bench. i don't want to be here. i usually only come for kenma, well and the fact that morisuke drags me here, but kenma's not on my side right now. i need to figure out how to make it up to him and properly apologize.