Eighteen [Narry AU]

[10]

Niall

I've been sitting in my room, thinking about this song for way too long. I've written a few lyric ideas down but I have no idea where it's going at the moment.

I sigh and stare at the paper in front of me, looking at the few lyrics I've written.

"I've got a heart, and I've got a soul

Believe me I will use them both

We made a start

Be it a false one, I know

Baby I don't want to feel alone"

I hum the lyrics quietly and bite my lip. Maybe this is all I need for now. I decide to take a break, getting up and walking downstairs. It's been 2 weeks since Harry's last party and there's something on my mind. After I felt Harry put a pair of his sweats on me I was in a half asleep state.

I heard him say he thinks he loves me. Which makes my heart feel full but, scared at the same time. He loves me, or we'll he thinks he does. What if he doesn't, or he realizes he doesn't. What if he realizes I'm not as great as he thinks I am. What if he starts to see me how I see me?

Here I go, worrying about the future again. If he were here he'd be scolding me, telling me to calm down. I haven't told him that I heard him, though.

"Ni, what's going on in your head?" My ma asks, walking over to me.

"2 weeks ago while Harry thought I was asleep, he said he thinks he's in love with me. I haven't told him I heard him, but I'm stressing over it" I sigh, opening up to my ma. "I'm scared. I think I love him too, but what if he actually doesn't love me or regrets being with me at some point- I just don't know if I can handle that disappointment" I run my fingers over my face, groaning.

"Niall, there's no way he'd ever think that, he adores you. I don't think he'd let you go in a minute. Not anytime soon. I can't tell you what the future holds, but I can see Harry in your future. You two are great together Niall. You bring out the best in each other. Just let him love you" she pulls me into a hug, rubbing my back. "Let him in."

I hug her back tightly and nod, sighing softly "you're right. I worry way too much. I should enjoy what I have now instead of stressing over the future constantly. Harry told me on our first date if I keep worrying about the future I'll have no memories to look back on. He's right" I chuckle.

"He is right. And he's smart too. He should know what it's like to lose yourself" she states. I nod and sigh.

"Well, I guess I should ask him over, to talk" I say and pull out my phone, calling Harry.

"Hello love" he says cheerily as he picks up the phone.

"Hi Haz, do you wanna come over?" I ask, biting my lip.

"Of course, I'd never turn down a chance to come see you Ni. Is something wrong? You sound nervous.." he asks, his voice laced with concern.

"I'm okay Haz, I am. I just wanna talk to you and hang out" I say. My answer is genuine. I would love to be in his arms right now because he always seems to calm me down.

"I'll be there in like, 5 minutes. Want me to stay over?" He asks.

"If you'd like" I smile. He's so adorable. I can just imagine the cheeky smile on his face as he's packing a bag.

"Alright, 5 minutes. I promise" he giggles "see you" he hangs up.

I sit on the couch and wait, playing some games on my phone. I hear the door open and I look up, seeing Harry walk in.