Contentious

1 - My Last Summer

Okay, so this started out as a dream where an alpha basically said "Fudge this, no who the hell would want to lead?" I since woke up, hit my head on a shelf, and decided this was a sign to write something. Anyway, hope you enjoy my bemused scribblings!!

And please comment... pretty please 🥺

— — Alex — —
"Enter"

I didn't particularly want to go in. I'd hoped for so long that this meeting would never happen.

"Alpha Malik" I stated, even as he sighed. I didn't realise I was still looking into his eyes until he stood. Power rolled off him as he tried to dominate me, make me submit. I couldn't, it wasn't in me to submit to someone my wolf saw as weaker. I shifted my eyes to the side instead, avoiding the conflict. At least no-one was around this time. I tried to avoid most pack events these days, it was always awkward as hell when I couldn't submit.

"You don't want to lead, do you?" It was more of a statement than a question, but I answered it anyway.

"No, quite frankly I doubt I ever will"

"It going to be hard for you to get a pack to accept you, with how dominant you are."

I appreciated him trying to let me down gently, but we had both known since I was 16 that this was going to happen. Most packs would have kicked me out as soon as couldn't submit to the alpha. Alpha Malik had let me stay till I was 18 and finished school. He was a good alpha, but each time we met I could see that he had to suppress his instincts to get rid of the threat. I was no longer a pup, I had to leave or someday we would fight. I certainly didn't want to challenge him, and he didn't want to kill the child of his best friend.

"When do I have to be gone by?"

"I can give you the summer... probably... I'm sorry this happened Alex. I hate doing this to you. Keep in touch. If you need money or anything to get started let me know. If you want to visit your parents book it in with me first, so we don't meet. Once you're out of the pack I'm not sure if I'd be able to not kill you. It been getting harder each year as it is."

He smiled at me sadly. This sucked for both of us.

"Thanks, Uncle. I'll let you know where I end up."

"You'd better boy, otherwise your parents will be on my ass again"

"They'd be on your ass anyway. By the look of it your paperwork's building up again. Your brain getting worse in your old age?"

A low rumble started up from his chest, and both our shoulders tensed. Fuck. This was getting worse, I could barely make a comment without his wolf thinking I was challenging him. Our gazes clashed. We both looked away this time. "Sorry, you need to leave."

"I'll be out of you hair as soon as I can, Alpha Malik" I said smiling wryly as I quickly left the office. Didn't want to push my luck, and as much as I wanted to cry I couldn't in front of someone my wolf saw as a threat. Crying was a liability in a fight.

As soon as I shut the door tears started trailing down my cheeks. I knew this moment was coming but it still hurts knowing I have to leave. That despite what Uncle Malik said it'll be almost impossible for me to return here again. A rogue alpha is the worst threat to a packs' Alpha, especially one as dominant as I am. Kill on site, regret later. It didn't matter that I would hate to lead a pack. Bureaucracy sucked.

As I walked down the corridor. I heard a muffled "Goddammit!" and a bang. I sniffled, tears falling still. At least Uncle Malik hated this as much as I did. But we could barely have a conversation in person anymore. Neither of us knew who would win if we fought. He had the experience, I had youth and the fighting lessons I had attended since my dominance became obvious. They'd tried to prepare me for this.

Damn.

I didn't want to leave.