STAY | SOPE (소페)

forgive

+ congrats BTS you deserved it
+badwords, little Inappropriate
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I look at my side nobody is there
Suga had left to go to work as always
I stood up and my put my slippers on
I go to the bathroom and look at myself in the mirror
"Why do I have to be ugly? Does Suga still love me?"
I kept questioning myself that over and over again

I wash my face and tried to put effort in myself with washing my teeth
But as always I threw up
I couldn't do it

I looked in my closet and all I see was black there was no color
I grabbed a black shirt with black Jean's and black sunglasses and a mask

I wanted to go out but where would I go
I decided to go to the new coffee shop they just opened

I got out my room and decided to go walking to the shop

I walked and walked
I felt like everybody was staring at me
But I knew that was just my imagination

I got to the shop
I went to order

"Sir what would you like"
"Sir....sir...sir!"
"Oh am sorry...umm can I have a black coffee"

-Jimin POV

I looked at those eyes
He looked sad

I asked over and over again until he replied
He looked handsome and for some reason there were butterflies in my stomach

He answered
The voice made me feel comfort inside of me and confidence

-Hoseok POV

He kept on looking at me
I felt as if I was being judged
Did I make him uncomfortable?

I got my black coffee
And sat down
I drinked it and I felt relieved
I felt as if it cleaned everything Inside of me

I see the same person who attended me come close to me
"Hey...ummm...can I sit down?"
"Dont you have to work"
"No I have a break right now"
"Sure sit down then"

"My name is Park Jimin"
"Jung Hoseok"
"Here is my phone number, you seem like a cool person, call me if you ever want to talk to me"
He leaves and I stood there sitting down with his phone number on my hand
I looked down at it and crumpled it and put it in my pocket

Nobody would never understand me so why would I talk to someone
The only one who understands me is Suga
I stood up and left my cup there

I walked and walked home
I opened the door and hear noises
I got up and hear laughs in the room
I thought it was just Suga laughing at something funny in the TV

I opened the door and I couldn't believe what i saw with my eyes
I run and run out
I ran and ran but didnt know where I was going

I sat down at a bench in the park my phone kept buzzing and buzzing
I looked at my phone and it was Suga

I dont know why but I responded
"Honey, it's not what it looks like"
"If it was not what it looks like why were you enjoying it so much, son of a bitch"
"DONT CALL ME THAT JUNG HOSEOK!"
I hang up the phone
I couldn't believe he did that to me
But I accepted it

I couldn't go back home
I heard a call again
It was Suga once again
I responded
"What do you want"
"Hoseok forgive me, I only love you"
For some reason I believed in his words I still loved him I couldn't leave him

"Okay I forgive you"
"Thank you honey"

I went back home and left my shoes at the front door
I went to the room and saw Suga in the bed
"I dont want to sleep in that dirty bed"
"I'll change it"
I went to the bathroom and threw up from the horrendous smell of cum

I got out and the smell was still there
Suga was laying down in the bed
I couldn't lay down but I wanted him on my side

I lay down and the smell hits my nose
He didnt change the sheets
My tears left my eyes
It dripped and dripped
Did he still love me?
I cant leave him

I slept with the tears in my eyes
I made myself believe tomorrow was gonna be a better day

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End Of Story