Running away from home

It's 3 am and it's not snowing.

The two lights came nearer me. It was a car. Of course it was a car. What else could it be? But it wasn't an ordinary car, no. No it wasn't. It was the cop. And not only the cop, no, also my parents. The car stopped and my mother run out before it stood still. She gave me first a big hug, that lasted under a second. Then she started yelling at me. What a caring mother. She told me that I made her worried and that I shouldn't have left like that. She also talked about my note.

'I am so sorry. I don't want to be here anymore. This is not my fate. You can't let me stay, unless you hate me,' was my note. That was it all.

I then got dragged into the car, and driven home. The first I did was to go into my room. I found my blades. "I have missed you," I said quietly. I looked at them for a while, and a single warm tear felt down my cheek. I went into the bathroom. This is the place I always did it. I took some toilet paper.

I wrapped my blades in it, and then threw it into the toilet. I then flushed. "I will alway miss you. You were my only friends who supported me."

The living room is next to my bedroom, so I heard my mother talking to my father. "What shall we do with her? We should have let her stay out there. I said I was worried about her, but what had the cops thought if I just said the truth. They would think I am a terrible mother. I can't let her make me look bad. Oh, so I wish she wasn't here!"

I took my rope, and the bottle of sleeping pills under my bed with me.

It was 3 am. I was running away from home. I didn't knew why, but I had this desire. It was 3 am. It was not snowing. It was not snowing anymore. One time it just has to stop. It stopped snowing. A car was coming towards me. In the melted snow. The snow is now melting away, just like I did.