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Chapter 4 - Kate

Chapter Four - Kate

Lydia, Allison and I are walking down the hallway talking about Scott. 

"Scott's coming over? tonight" Lydia asks Allison.

"We're just studying" Allison replies

"No you're not" I add in.

"Just studying" Lydia says with air quotes "never ends with just studying. It's like getting into a hot tub-- somebody eventually cops a feel." 

"Well, so what are you saying?" Allison says nervously

"I'm just saying, you know, make sure he covers up" Lydia says. 

I look at Allison who has a confused look on her face. I laugh "Hello, Snow White! Do it with him with a condom." I say 

"Are you kidding? After one date?" Allison asks shocked.

"Don't be a total prude. Give him a little taste." Lydia says

"You don't have to Allison. Just make sure you're safe if you do"

"Well, I mean, how much is a little taste?"

"Oh, God! you really like him, don't you?" 

"Well, he's just different. When I first moved here, I had a plan no boyfriends until college. I just move too much. But then, I met him, and he was different. I don't know. I can't explain it."

"I can. It's your brain flooding with phenylethylamine."

"What?" Allison and i both ask.

"I'll tell you what to do. When's he coming over?" Lydia sighs

"Right after school."

"Hmm"

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I leave school early since my last period was study period. I get home to see a box with a letter stuck on top. I go to my room and open the letter. 

Dear Mara,

I decided to pack up his things. Since i'm travelling i didn't want to keep it. thought you should have it. If you need me, call me.

Sam.

I scoffed. "Stop pretending like you care." I say as i throw the paper on the floor. I open the box to see Deans things. I start to grab things out. His flannels, the little toy car that looks exactly like his baby. I laugh at the messy writing he added. It says baby. I feel a tear roll down my face as i grab a paper folded in half from the box. It's a card i wrote him when i was 6. Messy and misspelt words were everywhere as well as badly drawn pictures. I stop and take a deep breath. I made this for his birthday. I made one for sam as well. I reach in again and found a journal. It looks like my dads one. I open it up.

Bobby told me to write down everything i see. Says it helps get through it. So here i am, writing it all down. Feeling like an idiot. Today i took Mara on a hunt without dad. Her first one. She was so excited. She's drawn to things that are thrilling. She hated the part were she had to run though. We hunted down a werewolf pack. Of course it was a werewolf. She didn't want to hurt them. I could tell. But she did it anyways. To make dad proud. 

I want her to have a normal life. I should have sent her off with Sam. Even if i meant i wouldn't be able to speak to her. I still should have done it. She would be safe. And would be able to be happier. Maybe meet a nice, smart boy and eventually gotten married. I mean i would probably be dead by then. Anyways, i still feel like an idiot so this might be my first and only write down. Until next time. Maybe.