After The Untamed

CHAPTER 4

Xiao Zhan POV :-

I woke up with severe headache. I tried to get up from bed and my body was aching. My eyes went wide open as I quickly remembered what had happened last night. I was naked under the blanket which confirmed that it wasn't actually a nightmare. I can't believe I actually let that happen between us. I have got drunk before too but never have I ever done something like this in my entire life. Forget sex, I haven't even kissed anybody in my drunken state. My eyes were filled with tears. I quickly got of bed and went for a bath. The water was cold. But it doesn't mattered. I just wanted to forget everything. I feel like he took advantage of me. I shouldn't have drunk so much. I hate him...I just hate him..why did you do that YiBo?!. Do you even know how much I have to control my feelings for you so that we can live happily as just friends without ruining our careers?. I have been holding back so that both our reputations won't be effected because of my one sided love for you. But now... it feels like you took advantage of me and played with my feelings knowingly or unknowingly.

My head was filled with so many thoughts and I cried and cried under the cold shower. There were a few kiss marks. I ran my hands through them as cold water continued to flow over my head and to the body.

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Xiao Zhan POV :

It has been a month since that night and the two of us haven't seen each other. He texted me a few times saying,
' sorry Zhan ge, i didn't mean for any of those things to happen. it was just an accident. Please forgive me' and ' please reply my texts if you forgave me. I am truly sorry, I was acting on impulse back then. I will never do anything like that, please don't avoid me. Please don't stop talking to me...i want to talk to you' and so on. I didn't reply to any of his texts and calls because Idk what I should tell him. I do have a liking for him, but I'm not sure what type it is. Wheather it is a romantic one or just an extremely close friend.

I have a shooting coming up at Bo Di's day day up show. I am really hoping to see him there and at the same time I don't want to see him either. It has been over a year since my last shoot at DDU. Last time was so much fun with BoDi by my side. After the 227 incident the entire video was removed from many sites including YouTube. However, this time he won't be there on stage with me for the show. We have made our public appearances together zero chance after the 227 incident, when people started to really question our relationship. If either one of us turned out to be into the other then it will have a huge consequence on our career. I don't want that to happen. My time is not the great at the moment, but I really hope I will be able to comeback to acting.

Today is the day of my shoot at DDU and I have already reached their studio. As I entered the studio I was welcomed by their staff there who gave me some refreshments and took me to the make up room. Ever since I entered the studio my eyes had been searching for Bo-Di, but he wasn't there. I was both happy and disappointed at the same time about the matter. After a small make up I went for photoshoot and a small interview prior to the real shoot where Yang Zi was waiting for me. She was looking as beautiful as ever. She reached the studio few minutes before me. She smiled and came running towards me as soon as she saw me. "Zhan gege!, you kept me waiting" she complained with a small pout. I couldn't help but smile at her and said, "sorry, I'm late. You had your interview done?" "Yeah. My interview's over just now. Come on let's have our photoshoot done and then we can finally talk after so long" she said as she dragged me along with her.

We had so much fun together throughout the first half of the shoot. Talking, laughing, teasing each other. All four DDU brothers (wang yibo's brothers) were also nice to me. Last time when I was here with YiBo and his brothers, they showed me Bo-Di's childhood pics which were sooo cute. It was nice to see how close their relationship was.

It was break time and I came out for a drink with Yang Zi and was welcomed by a scene that I was least expecting. It was YiBo. He was standing there looking down at a bouquet of roses he was holding. There was a girl standing in front of him. She was really beautiful. She had a slight shade of pink on her cheeks and earlobes as she was looking at the floor while talking to Yibo and looking at him in between. "Wow, I must say he is even more handsome in real than he is already in photos and videos I've seen" Yang Zi said. I don't know why, but when I saw him with someone else.... I was feeling uneasy. It felt like my heart was aching at the scene.

'Don't take those flowers. Throw them away. Tell her you can't be with her. Look at me and smile at me, come running towards me like you used to'. But he didn't. He said something to her and he turned in my direction and started walking still holding and looking at those roses. "She is cute. I wonder what he said to her. What do you think Zhan-ge?" Yang Zi asked me. I looked at her, "idk... reject maybe?"
"How can you be so sure? Don't worry Zhan-ge, even if he go for someone else you still have me" she said with a wink. I laughed at her comment, "what are you talking about?" I said. "Oh, you know exactly what I'm talking about" she said as she clinged on to my hand. "Now you are acting like a kitten" I told her and gave her a small tap on her forehead. When I looked back at Yibo, he was already looking away and walking towards his DDU brothers. His face became even more cold when he passed by me. I want to talk to him, I want to fight and play with him, tease him.....but I know I cannot... We both should keep our distance from each other in public and now in private as well. His lips, his touch, his smell... all came to me making me go crazy all over again. But I have to push it down.