hisoka x illumi [on the run]

at heavens arena

{TW scars and self harm}

The two walk up to hisokas apartment, latching on to eachother. They couldn't wait any longer, the tension was so high

》illumis pov《
Illumi and hisoka are latched on to eachother they tumble to hisokas bedroom, illumi is pinned down on silky sheets, looking up at hisoka
[It is now 12am]
Illumi feels how hisoka starts to unbutton illumis vest, illumi helps hisoka take his vest off along with his button up when hisoka unbuttons illumis clothing he sees a body full of scars, even on his wrists.
Illumi notices that hisoka stops and pulls away

Hisoka: "illumi- what-what is all this.."

Illumi doesn't know how to respond, his parents abused him and he cut himself, cuz it seemed to be the only thing that he could still feel, the cuts were deep anything so illumi could feel something.

Illumi:"its nothing-"

Illumi tries to continue kissing hisoka and get back in to the mood
But hisoka pulls away in concern of illumi

Hisoka:"illu, what happend to you?"

Illumi:" hisoka. Its nothing, dont worry about it"

Hisoka:"im worried! How do you have all these scars?!"

Illumi:" isn't it obvious, my parents needed to find out how much a child could handle, and me being the first born the experiments were done on me." Illumi says this in such a monotone voice showing absolutely no hate against his parents or anger.

Hisoka: "this is not ok! How can you pretend it is? And your arms"
Hisoka pulls illumis arm to look at it, illumi quickly pulls away tho.

Illumi: "what the hell hisoka!"

Illumi gets up from the silky bed and walks over to get his clothing back on so he can cover the scars

Illumi:" does it really bothers you that much? I know my body isn't ideal but thats not your place to say anything! Damit i dint think you would care about how i looked"

Hisoka:" what no, illu you are beautiful, your the most beautiful man ive ever seen, im just worried for you."

Illumi continues to put his clothing on in silence and make his way to the door
Hisoka goes after illumi pulling him in and hugging him.

Hisoka: "illumi.. please dont go, lets talk about this."

Illumi:"what's there to talk about?"

Illumi continues to show no emotion whatsoever, and tries to pull away from hisoka. Hisoka is not letting him go tho, and continues to hug him

Illumi:"let me go hisoka!"

Hisoka lets illumi go and illumi goes to the door to leave.

Hisoka quickly gets dressed and runs after illumi.
Illumi almost in tears then finds himself in front of killua and gon

Killua:"ILLUMI? WHAT THE HELL ARE YOU DOING IN HEVANS ARENA???"

Hisoka:"Illumi! Wait just talk to me!"

Gon:" psst killua its hioska"

Killua:"..... dont tell me your here with hisoka?! Whag the hell ilumi you hangout with this weirdo? I know you suck illumi but hisoka?!

Illumi looks down at killia then back at hisoka, tears are slowly building up 'i cany cry in front of kill' illumi then runs off passt killua

Gon:"whats going on?!"

Killua:"hisoka! Whats going on why are you chasing illumi?!

Gon:"and why does he look like such a mess? (Messy hair, basically looks like he was just macking out, untucked shirt)

Killua then comes to the realization:"wait a minute... DONT TELL ME, YOU AND ILLUMI HAVE SOMETHING GOING ON?!!"

Hisoka just looks at killua and continues running after illumi

Gon:" you really think illumi would go after hisoka?"

Killua:"i dont know its hard to belive but illumi has never been skittish, and he dint even dare ro make eye contact with me. It almost seemed like he was on the verge of tears..."

Gon:"illumi? On the verge of tears i find that hatd to belive"

Killua:" i know but ive never seen him in that state before. Im jinda worried.."

Hisoka catches up to illumi and begs him to come back to the room so they can talk. Illumi is overwhelmed and frustrated, he gives up running from hisoka cuz he knows he wont loose him.

Illumi:" fine."

Hisoka:" thank you, cmon lets go illu~."

(Back at hisoka room)

》hisoka pov 《
Hisoka leads illumi to the couch holding his hand, they sit down and hisoka just holds illumi tight and asks him to talk about it
Illumi starts to break down

Illumi:" damit hisoka if it weren't for you i wouldn't have become this week *sniff*"

Hisoka:" your not week illu, far from it, you've been through so much, i cant imagine how much pain you are in

Illumi:" why do you even bother talking to me, im a cold blooded assassin, ive always been an assassin. Heck i even considered murdering you in cold blood.
How could you ever care for me. Even my family hates me! I know they love killua the way they treat him compared to me is understandable tho.. killua is meant to be the next head of the family, ofcourse they will treat him better, to think i deserve that kind of respect. Its foolish im simply in my family for experiments and killing

Hisoka:" illumi dont think that way your not just for their cruel behavior, and i love you so much.

Illumi:" i cant even feel the slices i make on my wrists unless i make then deep enough. Sure blood runs down ftom my arm but i dont feel any pain.

Hisoka:"why would you ever cut yourself illu"
Hisoka strokes his face softly

Illumi:"dont i deserve it after all ive done. No i deserve worse, im a disappointment to my family i kill as a job. I deserve the worst, so why do you still hang around me."

Hisoka:" no ofcourse you don't deserve it, you deserve to be happy, to be loved.."

Hisoka pulls illumi in and illumi cries on his shoulder

Illumi:"hisoka im tired.. i cant go home tho."

Hisoka:"come here my lovely"
Hisoka pics illumi up bridal style and carries him to the bedroom.
"Would you like to borrow some clothing?"

Illumi:"y-yes please.. a sweater please.

Hisoka:"you sure? it rly ho- ah alright illu" hisoka hands illumi one oh his sweaters

Illumi turns away from hisoka and takes his clothing off reveling more scars on his back but not as many. Illumi pulls hisokas sweater over his body. Now inly wearing the sweater and boxers.

Illumi:"thank you hisoka.."

Hisoka:"ofcourse illu, come here~"
Hisoka sitting on the bed reaches for a hug.

The 2 hug eachother tight and lay down hisoka spooning illumi. They fall asleep, illumi still sniffling and crying. But he feels better knowing hisoka is by his side falling asleep with him.