It has to get worse before it can get better.

Its going to get worse before it gets better

Seeing Robert in the background as she face-timed Vic made her miss him so much. This was the right thing she kept telling herself. She was due to start her councillor session in an hour and she didn't want to start them not now or never to be honest. But first, she had a visitor it was Warren it wasn't his turn it was again Vic turn but Vic couldn't be there for several reasons but Ben said she can explain them.
He stayed for 20 minutes as of her session but he also gave her a letter she knew who it was from by the writing she put it on her side table saying she'll read it later.

This was Andy's third counselling session, Dr Saunders hoped she was going to talk today as the two times she didn't.
"So how would you like to start," Dr Saunders asked

"I don't know how this works" Andy admits

Simple just speak about what you want to get off your chest, what made you have a breakdown. She told andy.

Andy sat there for a moment
Well, my dad died saving me and my team from a storage unit that was on fire. Since he died I have found out loads from the past like my mum isn't dead she's alive and well and never wanted me and she wasn't happy unless she was fighting fire so left and never looked back. I always thought it had Something to do with my dad but I now know the truth my dad is my hero.

Is there anything else you would like to talk about before we finish up Dr Saunders asked?
I got to see my sister/cousin the other day I was so happy to see her.
The way Andy spoke about her tia, tio and her cousin she had a smile on her face it was a happy place for her but deep down there was more that she needed to talk about and Andy was still not ready for it.

A week went by and the letter was still sat on the side table she couldn't bring herself to read it.
She thought the worse if it possibly he ain't doing well he caves and turned to more drugs but she wouldn't know until she picked the letter up...Later she thought.

However Robert on the other hand well he pushed Vic and Dr Shepard further away, Seeing and knowing where Andy was frightened him a bit, he needs to know she was alright. Twice he went to the place demanding to speak to her but because they knew she didn't want to see him and it's only the 19 teams were aloud he was sent away.
He ran stupid a lot amount each day seeing Richard Webber his mentor three times a week and spoke about his addiction his work and his wife. He was amazed how much he and Richard got on and how some of the things Richard did was a tad funny. Robert was glad to have someone to talk to, to know what it's like

One evening Andy laid on her bed and she kept looking at the letter so she decides to read it.

Andy
I understand where your coming from this whole situation is hard. All I want is for you to be in my arms, that moment we shared the last time I saw you I wanted to quit the 90 days but I can tell you that it's been 70 long days. In that time I got myself a mentor, Richard Webber, it's helped to talk to him about everything. I jog loads it stops me going crazy and make loads of I but I was told it's not a good idea to do but how would they know if they won't try them.
I miss you Andy please please don't give up on us altogether. We can do this, get through this.
I love you Robert xxx

It reminded her of the aid car accident and how he told her that this all he ever wanted.
There were two pages she looked at the page it had
Robert 💓 Andy. Xx

Andy had more councillor session and still didn't speak about what she wanted to say she spoke about her team, her father her best friend even her mother but she didn't speak about Robert and still she wasn't ready. She couldn't leave until she spoke about him

There were several reasons why Vic wasn't seeing Andy in the hospital,
One she is couldn't bare seeing Andy how she was so She kept her distance, did video chats also one night when Robert was having a bad time They shared a kiss it didn't mean anything to her but she still betrayed her best friends trust. It didn't go any further than a kiss like that when they got interrupted by Ben.  But if he didn't turn up would there be anything more?

Maya saw Andy today she was happy to see her they chat about how the 19 teams are missing her and how they all can't wait for her to be back at work with them.
"Michelle has been asking to see if she can come and see you," Maya asked
Andy said she would like that, tell her to come and see me tomorrow
It was time for her next session with Dr Saunders, for ten minutes she says there not wanting to say what has been on her mind then she spoke.

I don't know if my feelings for my husband are real any more.  we got together while he was medicating and I was grieving over my father my best friend. We got married because I wanted to have that special moment with my father to walk me down the aisle.  I don't know how I feel about him I'm confused, this is why I split up with him. I need to know if I love him like I say I love him.
I saw him while I was on face timing and I felt nothing. I'm just so confused. A small tear fell down her face.

"Have you told Robert how you feeling" Dr Saunders asked
Andy shook her head, "No all he knows is that I've split up with him saying if we were meant to be, we'll find our way back to each other" Andy told her.