Somewhere Along The Way

Chapter:20

Happy new year to everyone. May this year bring you lots of love and happiness.

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Past..

Clarissa was again standing infront of the tree. Sebastian was sitting there like usual staring at the book. He was focused on studying until she came.

"Good morning" She smiled and take a seat beside him.

"Good morning" It's odd for him to greet anyone one back. He preferred to be ignored, but after a month he just could not ignore her. For a brief moment he wander Why? But that's how it is. She put her head against his shoulder. He stiffen up but relaxed as if his body knows who this is.

He was going through some study material for Business Accountancy.

"You know something odd happened.." Clarissa said narrowing her eyes. Sebastian looked up from his book and stare at her giving her his full attention without even noticing.

"You got a B- in Buisness Accountancy" Sebastian froze. He got what?

"But You are so good at it, then how?" Clarissa frowned was this also a part of bully? If only she knew. A chill ran down his spine. Clarissa frowned at his pale facial expression. He noticed that but could not do anything about that. A sick feeling flipped in his stomach. His hand turned cold, he was shaking. He rapidly blinked his eyes before rushing out as fast as he could.

Sebastian blinked his eyes precipitation forming on his forehead. He sit up, taking a few deep breath. He blinked his eyes rapid, he feel sick to his stomach.

"Stop" he clutch hand dippinv his finger nails, hurting himself. His stomach twisted painfully. A tear rolled down his cheek.

"Please stop" it feels like he was being choked and the bile nrose up. The next moment Sebastian rushed inside the bathroom emptying his stomach. It was only bile nothing else. When was the last time he had any food? He slide down curling up into a ball. His shoulder shake. He very well know what happened next? How many times did it happened? He lost counts. Tears trickled down his cheek. He wanted to scream, cry beg for someone to stop this. Before he goes mad. He closed his eyes tightly trying to think of something anything.

Sebastian sat there for how long he don't know. If only, He could get used to this cold sickening feeling, those sudden attacks. He feel detached from his surrounding. It was only two hours and he feel more exhausted than before. A part of him wanted to feel her warm hands around him. For a fleeting moment he would like to dream of that to escape this reality. A momentary peace. Is this wrong of him if he wants her to comfort him? Is he taking advantage of her? How will she answer if he asked her? Will she fight with him? Tell him how annoying he is? He chuckled rubbing his wet cheeks.

"Clay?" He blinked his eyes, feel dark spots. His body is shutting down. Sebastian struggled to keep himself awake.

"Please" he blinked his eyes as another tear rolled down. Anything so that he does not feel this way but it was too late for him. Everything blacked out.

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Clarissa was sitting on the bench near the park. She took Noa who was now run around while she keep eyes on her. The scenario was refreshing and peaceful they were enjoying their time only for a while though. Clarissa does ot I ow if this is her feeling anxious or something. But she could not shake off this feeling of being watched. Something seems awfully wrong. She shake her head, it might be all in her head.. but is it though?