Companion to Chase Your Fate

Dear Dad

You look at me

and see only what you despise

I'm so damned tired

of seeing myself through your eyes

I'll never be

never be what you desire

but that's ok

because your eyes are a liar

all i ever needed

was to be seen as your son

all you ever wanted

was for me to be another one

and you've finally pushed me

you've pushed me too far

and I know that I'll never

never be where you are

you take my foundations

and tear them all down

I reach for your hand

and you just watch me drown

I beg for your help

so you help me to fail

I long for your arms

but your love is for sale

and I cannot afford

what your love would cost

so I'll wander in darkness

knowing I'm lost

while you feed all my doubts

and remind me to fear

making me wonder

why i am still here

so I'll make you this offer

though I know what you'll say

stay out of my life

and I'll just go away