Losing Control

Part 2

"we were going to stop right?"

you are looking at her while she asks you this, you battle between being honest or not.

"I didn't want to stop, did you?"

you know it is soon for you two, it was the second time you two even kissed but you can't help to recall the way she felt against you, the sound of her moans and how you are still wet sitting in this café trying to make small talk.

She looks at you, you can tell that there is a part of her that is shy, but she answers you anyway

"no I didn't, I would have been glad to make love to you in that car"

you aren't sure which part hits you more, her admission or the fact that Val just said the words 'make love', you take a deep breath and try to control yourself, it feels like your whole body is on overload and there is nothing you can do to prevent it

"You know what the problem is? I can't stop thinking about you, it's like a broken record on loop, it's embarrassing"

You smile at her, she has this way of explaining things that makes her sound so innocent, you aren't delusional, you know that between you two she is the one with the sexual experience, but when it's about feelings, she always sounds like a kid that is still learning how to deal with life.

"I can't stop thinking about you too"

You tell her and she makes that adorable face when she smiles and put her head down, completely uncomfortable with the idea of you feeling this much about her, it makes you wanna laugh, looking at her she should be used to people falling for her, but looks so fragile around you.

"We are in love"

You feel like you need to say those words out loud so she understands that this is real, this is something that you both are feeling, she looks at you

"With a girl?"

Now you get it, being with a guy is something that she is used to, having guys falling on her knees begging to be with her it's normal, but feeling something for a girl and having the girl feel something back, that's new, that's different and that makes her anxious.

"Val, I'm in love with you"

You try to mark the 'you' so she understands that the fact that she is girl makes no difference in how you feel, she could be a parrot for Christ's sake and you would be repeating sentences with her until you die.
She gives you one of those smiles that make you melt

"What do we do now? I never felt this way with anyone" She asked with a soft voice

You can't control yourself and your curiosity

"Not even with Lucho?"

The face she makes, God you need to see that face again, she throws her head back and laugh, it looks like she has an inside joke with herself.

"Zero."

You two look at each other for a while

"And what about me?" You ask playfully

"Way more than zero." She answers you, ducking her head

You wonder where did the Val from the car twenty minutes ago went, the confident enough to tell you that she was about to come for you, you shiver with the thought and she notices.

"What's wrong?" Her voice sounds concern and playful at the same time

"Well, you still have Lucho"

She scrunches her nose like remembering him is an awful detail

"Gimme a second" she says while already getting up to the bathroom.

You stay sitting there, sipping your water cup and trying to calm your heart, you text your mom saying that you two are gonna take longer than expected and put your phone away by the time she comes back to the table.

"There you go, done." She says smiling at you

Did you miss anything while she went there? She looks like the cat that ate the canary, with a mischievous smile

"What is done?" Seriously, how long did you stay texting your mom?

"You said that I still had Lucho, well I don't anymore"

She sounds like it's the obvious decision, you are looking at her shocked, she is still laughing at your face that you know it's far from sexy right now

"Did...did you just break up with him?" Your head is going a million miles an hour

"Yep."

Yep, that's how she tells you something that you secretly wanted to happen in a long time, you smile at her again, she lays her head on your neck and you aren't sure what does that mean.

You get distracted with the fact that her breath is hitting your neck that seems to be very sensitive today, you turn your face a bit and she looks up at you, you stare at her lips, you are dying to kiss her again, but kiss Valentina Carvajal in public meant a lot more than a random girl, she is still staring at you deeply.

"Are you ready to leave?" She asks and her tone of voice doesn't tell you if it's to Silvina's house or not but you agree to any option

The two of you make your way back in the car, Alirio already sitting there and you try your best not to smell her perfume or remember what just happened in there, you can see in her face that she is going through the same issue but she still comes closer and lays her head on your shoulder.

You two stop at her house, your heart is beating faster than it ever did, she looks shy

"I just forgot something here, I promise"

You smiled at her

"Wanna come with me?" And here it is, your decision, if you go inside this empty house with her after what happened you know that there is huge chance of the same thing or more happening again, you can tell her that you wait in the car, but her face looks so hopeful as she offers you her hand.

"Yes" That's all you trust your body to answer, you step off the car and still holding her hand you walk in the house, none of you is really talking much which is uncommon for the two of you

You walk upstairs with her towards her room, you both look nervous knowing that everything can happen right now

"Do you want water? I probably should have offered you downstairs, I can go grab it" You stop her rambling

"Val, tranquila, calm down, it's just us here, I know that we got carried away in the car but it doesn't mean anything here okay?"

She smiles again

"Yes, the car..."

Now you two are looking at each other again, the mood shifting and you two holding hands

"You know, I was thinking something, I'm glad we didn't do anything in the car" She says coming closer to you

Your insecurities tell you that she regrets it and you are ready to tell her that you are sorry

"Yeah? Why?" You aren't sure you wanna hear the answer

"Because when we make love I want to see you naked"

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