Hold On BTS x Reader

I can't take this

It's been a month. A whole month since BTS disbanded. We're all a mess, it'll take time to get back to our old selves but we have to be patient. There's nothing ordinary anymore. We never come out of our rooms. Most of us had moved out. Me, Hoseok, and Seokjin are still here though. Yoongi, Namjoon, Jungkook, and Taehyung had left.

I missed the old days. Where we were happy and just had each other. Sometimes I even watch over out old videos. Like.. Bon Voyage and RUN BTS! How I wish we were still that happy. Honestly, I'm sick off life. It feels as I'm trapped in my own thoughts. I shut everything and everyone out. I don't even leave the house anymore I'm afraid to show myself. I'm just.. stuck, I guess. I wanna break free but it's like theres no escape. Maybe I should leave? Forever.

"Jimin? Are you in here?" My thoughts were interrupted by a voice.

"Taehyung.. Is that you?" My eyes glowed as I felt them get watery.

A tall figure walked into my room. A small, pitiful smile visible on his face.

"Taehyung.." My voice cracked and I ran into his arms.

I wanted to hold him forever. It's like he was the sun coming back into my life. I needed him. I needed all of them. At least I've got him back.

"What's up- Woah. Jimin? Is that a gun?" He muttered, concerned.

"Uhm I-" He pushed past me and grabbed the pistol which laid on my nightstand.

"Jimin.." He cried my name and ran to hug me.

He rested his head in the crook of my neck.

"I love you okay? I missed you. Don't do this to yourself." He grabbed my shoulders and looked into my eyes.

"I'm sorry." I sniffled grabbing him and pulling him back into a hug.

We stayed like this for awhile until we said our goodbyes and he went back home.

All I can say, is him & me definitely went to sleep with smiles on our faces.

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I was jumping up and down seeing that I made them happy. Now I just need the others to reunite. I already had the whole system planned out, but an annoying bitch decided to disturb me.

"What do you want Ryuon?" I asked while rolling my eyes.

"What are you doing?" She asked.

I replied sassily, "Go away and go back to watching your damn videos. Quit disturbing me because you're pissing me the fuck off."

"Oh sorry." Than she left.

Thank god.

She has a weird aura. It's suspicious. I wonder how she got up here. I should quit assuming she hasn't done anything yet. But still.. Eh, whatever. What can someone like her do anyway? Not stream Life Goes On? Wait no that's bad. Uhm, never mind I'll just keep an eye on her.

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Oh, Y/N. She doesn't see what's coming. Good luck, because your little Bangtan Boys are gonna be goners.

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I've been struggling for far too long. My days are getting longer. It's like the road never ends. I want to get out of this. I want to get out of here. I know I'll regret everything from this moment on, but I'd rather not be here than stuck in an apartment with a lighter in my hand ready to commit arson.

My mind has become my biggest enemy. I feel powerless. Like my thoughts took over my life. All negative, nothing positive. I just want to withdraw myself from this lifestyle, but I can't. I want everything back. Friends, Family, Fans. I don't do anything anymore. I told myself I'd still produce music but I've given up on that. I wish I was still the old Yoongi, too.

I flickered the lighter, setting a spark then blowing it out. I want to make the right decision. I don't want to suffer but I don't want people to suffer because of me. Actually, I wonder if anyone actually cares about me anymore. They haven't seen me for months. Honestly, I think we've lost all our friendships. By this time we would've met up again but that's way past due.

"Open up!" I hear someone yell while continuously slamming on the door of my apartment.

I quickly hid the lighter and looked through the peak-hole. Their hand had covered it so all I saw was black. I slowly opened the door to see Jungkook and Hoseok.

"Hobi? Jungkook?" I slightly turned my ehad before being engulfed into a hug by them.

"Are you okay?" Jungkook asked me while staring into my eyes with his.

"Erm.. Well, not totally but you guys are here now." I slightly smiled knowing that they cared about me.

"Listen, we need to go find the other members before stuff happens. Jimin & Tae have already met and they're trying to help." Hoseok muttered leaning against the wall.

"Just Namjoon and Seokjin are left, right?" I questioned.

They both sucked air in and looked at each other.

"They're in the worst condition. We're lucky we even found you but it'll be hard finding them." Jungkook implied in a serious tone while staring at the ground.

"What do you mean they're in the worst condition?" I was sitting but began to rise slowly from the bed.

"Yoongi, they tried to commit suicide and they haven't been found yet. There's a chance we're too late and we've already lost them."

That was the last thing I heard till I passed out.