Lorenzo Berkshire||My Strongest Desires

A G O N Y & B E T R A Y A L

•lorenzo berkshire

The more I sat alone in my room away from Juliet, the more I slowly close in on myself.

My parents are the only thing i've seen besides food and water for god knows how long. I don't know what they're planning for me. I have a feeling of what though.

It is dark outside, the window only shown the moonlight onto my face. I haven't no clue what day it is. I am exhausted but I can't fall asleep, my brain and body physically won't let me. If I do fall asleep, I get the same nightmare, every time.

It always goes like this:

I'm in the forbidden forest, a long ways from safety, from home, from Hogwarts.

It is nighttime and I walk along this river that splits the forest in two. I always catch someone walking the same pace as me from across the body of water. They are just a black figure, and whenever I stop walking, they stop. I always thought it was just my shadow, until one night I slept longer, and I found out it was no where near even being me.

That one night, I had tried to swim across the river to see who it was, but just like everything they did, they swam in the water too. It was like I was looking in a mirror, except I couldn't recognize the face.

We met in the middle, it was almost like a dementor was in front of me, just no hole in the mouth to suck out my soul. The river was always calm, no rough tide to pull me away. I spoke to it.

"Who are you? What do you want from me?"

It never responded. But what it did do was take it's black hole of hands and start to scratch at it's face. It wasn't gruesome or anything but it peeled the black skin off to reveal a face. The first time I saw the face, it was my father.

Charles Berkshire.

He stared at me for a few minutes, still copying my movements as his arms swayed in the water with mine. After those few minutes, he dove down under the water and disappeared. I tried to swim away but it was as if my body were frozen, I couldn't move a limb. All of a sudden I felt a hand drag me under water. My father kept pulling me further, I ran out of breath and started to drown. I tried my absolute hardest to get away, but I died. I drowned and that's when I woke up.

Every night that I do end up falling asleep, a different person appears.

One night it was Bellatrix. Another was Voldemort. They would just keep repeating after the other.

Until last night, it was the same dream only there were two shadows this time. I decided to not go in the water this time. The black figures reached their hands out to me and screamed my name, begging for me to help them. It scared the living Merlin out of me so I backed up and thought I ran into a tree. I turned around and saw Juliet, choking. She was bleeding from her throat, which had been sliced.

Blood covered her hands and she couldn't speak. She reached her hands out to me looking for balance,

"Who did this to you?" I asked.

When Juliet finally dropped down to her knees, the other figure appeared behind her. It revealed Abbie, with her wand full of blood, indicating she slit Juliets throat.

I grabbed Abbies throat and began to choke her, squeezing hard. At that point Juliet was dead and all that was going through my mind was,
"I'm going to kill her."

I wouldn't lay my hands on a woman but this was just a dream, I couldn't really control what was happening, or could I?

I threw Abbie into the river and she couldn't swim. She begged for my hand to help her out of the water but I didn't want to. She used me, made me get her pregnant, came after Juliet, and also used Draco.