here again/ Amelia Shepherd

Chapter 1

Amelia had just come from work, she had a huge fight with Meredith about Derek and she ended up buying a bag of oxy, putting it on her pocket and she got to Meredith's house to pick up her things

- I can't do this anymore. I've tried to not feel anything, I've tried to handle it but I can't. Derek is gone, he's gone. I don't wanna feel it, I can't , I just- I can't!- thought Amelia while taking the bag of oxy off her pocket- I'm so so sorry- said while crushing it with a book that was on the shelf of Meredith Grey's house and sniffing it

She was feeling miserable for months, Mer ran and had a secret baby and everyone had already grieved Derek but Amelia hadn't. She was avoiding it for months, feeling terrible but ignoring it not to feel even worse. But when Meredith came back and screamed at her, she couldn't handle it anymore.
After taking the drugs, she felt great, for the first time in a very long time. She would have liked to only had taken one, and then never again. But she knew that that was not what was gonna happen.
She was back there, and there was nothing that she could do now, to get out of there. And she wasn't planning on getting out.

The next morning

Amelia woke up feeling really bad, she was still in Mer's place, so she thought that she may have had slept there.
The high was gone, she had to go pick up more drugs. She got her prescription pad and was about to write on it when she got paged to do a consult at the hospital, so she drove to the drug store, got her drugs and went to the hospital

At the hospital

Owen - Susan Walter, 54 years old. The patient was in a car accident, we think that she may have some brain injuries. Would you mind to look at the patient?
Amelia- sure, let's seeee- says while doing a check up on the patient- Doctor Hunt would u talk to me for a moment. Outside?
Owen- of course, are u okay?
Amelia- of course I am, your idiot, but Susan may have a bleed, we need to take her to surgery
Owen- don't you want to take a head CT first, just to be sure??
Amelia- nop, now prepare the OR please
Owen- okay...

After surgery

Owen- so, how did the surgery went? Is Susan ok??
Amelia- turns out it wasn't a bleed, it was just a headache
Owen- wha-
Amelia- hey, accidents happen right? Good luck telling her!- she laughed and left the hospital

Amelia got to a motel room, tooked more drugs and then blacked out

While in the hospital

At a board meeting

Owen- so, I wanted to talk to the board because I think Amelia is not ok
Jackson- what do you mean "Amelia is not ok"
Owen- I mean that she's not fine, at all
Meredith- she's probably just mad because we had a really big fight
Webber- you had a fight with her? I did too! God, she must be really mad. Wait, what did she did?
Owen- well, she did surgery on a patient while the patient was totally fine. And then left
Jackson- we'll think about it, thank you, meeting finished

Webber (to Meredith)- do you think she's doing drugs or drinking?
Meredith- I hope not, but I guess we'll have to wait

Heyyy, how are you???
This is my first fanfic in a long time, so I hope you like it❤️❤️
I'm just here to say that Lexie will be alive and I'm very capable of just killing Owen and making anyone care about it because why not?
That's all for now
Byeeeee❤️