People think being a Malfoy is all riches and having set ambitions, but really it's a constant feeling of pressure, a constant feeling of being numb. Being numb to emotion, being numb enough to lie. Days aren't really days; they are just annoying obstacles that need to be faced. And how do you face them? Through lies, deceptions, and regrets. And to find anything to grasp onto that can get you through the day. I use goals and accomplishments to try and make me happy, when in reality when i reach said goal I'm left empty and sad. I'm worried that one day everybody will see me how I see myself. I'm scared. I don't wanna be alone anymore. I don't have anyone.
So being Draco Malfoy is not sadness or tears, it's an overwhelming sense of never being good enough and the desire for anything that can help you make it from one day to the next. I'm just trying to recover from things that I keep to myself. I'm trying to silence the thoughts that I never talk about. Trying to mend wounds that I don't show. I'm trying to release the pain that I hid behind a bully. I'm just trying to heal.
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Draco's World
Fanfiction"My name is Draco Malfoy, the world through my perspective is a little different to the rest..."
