highschool sander sides life

logan

Author's note: I jump a lot but I wanted to do this chapter, this takes place before Logan went to school, it was when he barely moved.

His breath was there,his eyes,his mouth, body and most importantly his soul.......but my breath was not there,my eyes,my mouth,body and my soul weren't there either.....were was i? Why wasn't I there? Why....why did I let you fall? Why was I so careless to let you cry yourself to sleep while I was out laughing and having fun forgetting about you.......I got into a fight with you... I screamed
"why don't you hang around with me more!?"
Forgetting the fact that you are too busy working to get money to save your dying family. And you trying so win the war between your sadness , and horrible thoughts. I was not there when the crash happened I just remember calling you to come to my house since we had "serious" things to talk about......they were not serious, I was just being childish and wanted attention, I was mad because you did not get me a birthday gift......I feel inmature and stupid now that I look back on it......the news were on the TV while I was on my phone.....I heard that a car crash happened close to here. It caught my attention and I kept looking.... when I heard your name I felt numb......I could not hear the lady saying what happened to you it was all quiete with my bad thoughts ruling my mind....I felt like the world was ending.....tears started falling down my face. When I went back to normal, one thing I heard clearly was in which hospital you were going I remember grabbing my stuff as fast as I could not caring if my makeup was ruined or what clothes was I wearing. I opened my car door and started to drive.....the car ride to you was terrible, the memories of us laughing, playing around and just being together came to me crushing me down in sorrow. My vision became blurry with tears threathing to spill.....but I got to the hospital I parked ,opened the hospital door and demanded to know where you were, as soon as they told me I went running to your room......there was only your girl best friend.....the only friend you have.....she was crying nonstop with her head on her hands,she was sitting on a blue looking chair. I went up to her said a simple
"How is he?"

And sat next to her, I never noticed how my voice was so raspy until then,....
She just looked up to me.....with desperate,sad,angry but strangely empty black eyes

"What are you doing here?"

She asked me like she forgot I was yours and you were mine....

"I....saw the news a-and came as s-soon as possible"

I responded shyli not wanting to tell her that I may have caused that accident

"W-well he is o-okay.....he will be okay!"

She mostly screamed that part with more tears coming her head was back in her hands and the sobbing and pleading for you to come started once more....I couldn't help to feel angry with her.....or was it jealousy? Was I jealous that she was pleading for you to come back and I wasnt?

"Are you both family members,friends or partners of-"

"Y-yes yes we are....I mean I am his girlfriend and she is his best friend"

I answered cutting him off not wanting to hear your name out of his mouth

"Well the doctor said he is okay,but he will stay here for a couple of days"

he said looking more to your best friend who was smiling brightly with dried tears still in her face....I was beaming too thinking of all the things I was going to say to you and do to you after you woke up and could be with me.....

I would hug you, kiss you, tell you how much I love you....and then I would sa-

That is when I saw her practically dancing like a kid getting a puppy for their birthday...thats when it hit me

She likes you..... No....she loves you....and the thought of you both being a couple hit me like bricks and ate me inside......

A week later you woke up I visited you of course but it felt awkward.....and I saw you more happy with her and I totally understood that .....that is when you told me these words that I will never forget

"T-this isn't going to work.....I loved you.....I still love you but this is not healthy for both of us I am sorry but you need to find someone better for you and I do too........"

I couldn't breath my whole body went numb once more you were still in the hospital bed with a few bandages....you were not laying down you were sitting looking straight at me.....

I wanted to yell no and that I was sorry I was so stupid but i just said this

"Okay I.....I love you too"

Two years have passed and I see you with her.....your best friend......well now girlfriend you both talk and talk for hours in the park while I just stare looking at the way you look at her with admiration and love, while she looks at you the same I could never rival that....... I have moved on but me loving you will never end I took your advice and found someone who I think might be the one.....he helped me grow and change for someone better I........I love him....

Thank you for the fun times we had I really loved and love you but I have found someone, who Is also a person who I admire and look at with love......

"I wish you the best of luck Mark Coran and Lora White"
Author's note again: I wrote this a few months ago at night, sorry if you cringed. Mark and Lora are just people from my imagination.

Logan sighed as he finished the last words of his new book. He was sitting in his new room back against the wall, he did not feel like moving to his desk where his not comftarble chair was at.
The quietness was so loud to him but relaxing in a way. He was used to it being alone almost all his life since young age.

"It is NOT necessary to move!"

"Yes it is Logan now be quite and go to your room, get your stuff we are leaving in a week"

The argument did not finish there, but the whole argument was a blur to him.
Logan sighed once more, being comoletely disappointed that he fought just like his parents would.

Boxes and boxes were piled up, just a plain white desk and chair, with a bed that could make you think no one ever slept in it. Logan's parents never went to Logan's room,but when they did it was a

"Your grounded"

That happened, his desk was painted with things that made Logan smile, to Adventures of Sherlock Holmes to the universe painted with colorful colors of blue,purple,white and black. Sherlock was painted as a mysterious black figure, but was still recognizable if you knew who sherlock was in the first place.
There were also other books like
'The door with seven locks' by Edgar Wallace.
Or 'Henry VIII' by William Shakespear

All of them books that not many people ever knew of, but that Logan kept dearly in his heart.