Cecilia

Chapter 1: Just an Illusion

Cecilia

I do not know what to do.

I know everything but I cannot say it to them. They will clearly hate and despise me; I won't be able to live a normal life anymore.

I crouched down, holding my aching stomach. Goddamn, it is slowly burning me. My power is burning me.

It all started with a dream. An old woman is talking to me, warning me--saying, "I am your Guardian, Cecilia. Search for me and unleash me, for I am always inside you. Thou shall remember to not trust anybody in the future, they are all bound to tell lies." I did not believe her at first, but now that my ability is awake, I have to talk to her.

"My Goddess! I offer my life to thee! Come guide me into my quest of finding the light!" I shouted at the top of my lungs while dramatically holding my chest. I hope she will heed my heartfelt prayer.

"Ayan ka nanaman, Cecilia Dominique Renoir! Nasisiraan ka nanaman ng ulo! Kung sino man yang Diyosang dinadasalan mo, baka winarak na niyan ang mundo sa sobrang irita sayo." Sigaw ng aking Mama. "Kumain ka na nga rito! Bwisit kang babae ka. Wala ka na ngang ginawa kundi magpantasya diyan sa magical-chararat mo, nang-iinis ka pa!" dagdag niya.

Ugh, bwisit ka rin, Ma. Malapit na akong mapunta sa aking Magical Universe 'eh. Nakakainis. Ganoon kasi yung nangyari sa isang bida sa binabasa ko. She had a dream about an entity that lead to a discovery that she is the Lost Goddess that will save her kingdom. Oha! Ako na sana ang kanyang personification kung hindi lang umepal si mama.

Nakasimangot akong umupo at kinuha ang pancake atsaka ito nilagyan ng maple syrup. If coffee is hailed as the drink of Gods, is this their food? It's so good! As much as I want to savor this glorious breakfast, I need to hurry for my class.

I asked my mom to pack some more pancakes for my lunch at school, for which my little brother Wolfgang Alexandre replied, "Glutton!" Epal ka.

Well, the little event you witnessed earlier--me acting like a hidden fantasy princess--is not new in our home. I always do that because I am an addict when it comes to stuff like magic and hidden world, though I do not believe in those in real life. I want to tho, because I think it is so beautiful. However, my skeptic mind keeps telling me that those otherworldly entities I read in various fantasy books were something that I can just indulge in my imagination.

"Good morning, Kuya!" I greeted the resident guard when I arrived in our school.

"Oh. ang aga mo ngayon, Cecilia ah!" Kuya Allan, the guard in my school, jokingly replied. I know I am about to be late, don't rub it on my face. Grineet na nga kita, 'eh. Hmp.

"Hehe. " I laughed awkwardly while walking away.

Don't get me wrong. I do know how to initiate and start and conversation, but I do not know how to keep it going. Oftentimes, I'll just shrug my shoulders, nod my head, or laugh, which terminates my talk with other people. I also do not have many friends, for I give utmost importance towards quality, rather than quantity. Hindi naman kasi ako pumasok ng school para makipag-compete sa iba kung sino ang mas maraming kaibigan 'eh. Pumasok ako para mag-aral.

Hah, hah, hah. Panting, I reached out to the last step of the stairs going to my classroom located at the fourth floor. Hindi pa nga ako nakakapasok ng class, pagod na agad ako! Gods. Anyway, I have my pancakes as my motivation to keep climbing the stairs, so that I can eat them when I reached my classroom.

"Bitch!" Oh, well. Good morning to me.

It seems that these putrid creatures won't just vanish into nothingness. Well, they are not literally putrid, it is rather the reeking smell of their character.