Stories to Change

Story #8: The Person I Wish I Was, Part One

Tobot V2 Story, After episode 34. Pilseung has been having night terrors, and can't sleep at all. Who will be the one to help him out of this?

"YOU JUST USED US!"

"YOU ARE NOT OUR FRIEND!"

"DIE!"

"AHHHH!" Oh PIlseung shot up from bed, eyes wide in terror as he looked around. Feral fear possessed him, making him shiver despite the warm weather of autumn. Where was he? Why was he home? Where were the Black Tobots? Why was he not dead? Didn't he deserve to die?

As the fear settled down, he remembered that they had rescued them. He remembered that they were safe now.

"Another nightmare..." he sighed. "Not again..."

His eyes moved downwards to look at his brother, who was sleeping peacefully.

A small smile appeared on his face. Most people would think that he would be the peaceful sleeper, but in reality it was Pada who usually slept like a literal rock. He did use to sleep well, but now...

An exhale escaped his lips. It was okay. It had passed. He just wanted to be able to sleep well...

Ah, whatever. Time to sleep.

Lying back on the bed, he closed his eyes.

_--_

"Pilseung? PILSEUNG!"

"A-AH!" He jumped, turning his head upwards to face the person he was video chatting with.

Kang Taeyang had a frown on his face as he asked, "You okay? You seem out of it."

"I-I'm fine," he waved it off, smiling in an attempt to soothe his fellow Galaxy Master's worries. "It's just that I'm feeling a bit tired today."

"You sure? You have bags under your eyes."

Ah, so he was as perceptive as they called him.

Well, he didn't want to worry him, so he said, "I'm fine. It's just me being a bit tired. Nothing much. It can be tiring at times. Bubble Cat can attack at night too, so I'm kinda used to it."

"Night?" Taeyang frowned. "They don't show you mercy even at night?"

"Yeah..." He felt a bit bad for lying, but what could he do? He couldn't say that he had nightmares...

"Okay then. Stay safe, Pilseung."

"Likewise. Stay strong, but don't overwork yourself to find Galaxy Weapon 6."

"Got it."

The video call ended there, and he exhaled, massaging his forehead. Everything was okay now-

"YOU SHOULD JUST DIE! NO ONE WOULD MISS YOU!"

His face color went pale. He gripped his head, stammering, "C-Captain Jack, forgive me... I-I know what I did wrong! I-I know I should die!"

"You're not our friend. You are just a selfish brat who uses us for your own selfish purposes!"

"Silver Hawk, f-forgive me! I-I KNOW MY MISTAKES! S-So please, leave me alone!"

"You should die. Swallow a million pins and let us watch you die in agony."

"Leo Kaijeo... I-I'm so sorry..." He curled up into a ball, feeling nothing but pain in his chest. His hands shook. He couldn't handle it. It was too much. It was full pressure now... There was only self-hatred left. Jeon Iluk was right. Pada was right. The Black Tobots were right.... He was just a waste of space...

"P-Pilseung...?"

His head swiveled upwards, and found himself face to face with someone he didn't expect, "L-Lightning?"

The smart speaker Tobot wasn't the only one there. Classic sounded very shocked as he asked, "I-Is this truly what you feel all the time, Pilseung-nim?"

"C-Classic..." He backed away. His back hit the door, and he was cornered by the two.

"Pilseung, please, talk to us..." Lightning begged.

"I-I don't know a thing! J-Just leave me alone!" He turned around, slamming the door open and running out just as Pada and the others came. He ignored the shouts of surprise and ran out of the house. He knew it was cowardly, but he had no choice. They had said it themselves; he was a waste of space...

_--_

"He was saying that?" Pada frowned.

"Yeah... It looked like he was hearing stuff we couldn't," Lightning answered.

"And you sure he said Captain Jack, Silver Hawk and Leo Kaijeo?" Pori asked as she leaned on the chair.

Another nod from Classic, "He was crying too..."

"They were the ones who had been turned black during that time, right?" Lightning asked. "Maybe something they said impacted him?"

"Hm... Give me a moment," Pada turned around and started clacking away at the computer.

Curious, they all leaned in. What was he doing?

He then highlighted a certain phrase as he said, "This is what you saw, Classic, Lightning."

Pori gasped, tears pricking at her eyes seeing it.

Lightning was shaking as he read it aloud, "P-Panic attack?"

"Or flashback... That's when you get flashes of what happened during a certain time of your life," Pada added, his tone low.

"W-We did that to him?..." Leo Kaijeo shook even more. "W-We hurt him to the point that he couldn't handle it...?"

"Either way, we have to find him!" Pada cut in. "We can't leave him alone!"

"Why not?" Ultra Commander curiously asked.

His answer sent cold water through their minds.

"Because if it gets bad, he could kill himself!"

It scared them a lot hearing that. Pilseung wouldn't do that... Right?

They only had to hope otherwise.